Home's face: how it ages when you're away
basically...
today sucked..
reading everyones entries..
everyones depressed.... :(
ghey..
yes.. i was the same today.
hugs make me feel better though...
go ahead. tell me how emo i am.
leave me alone to think...
i don't give a fuck
what other people think about me.
i miss my friends, the best friends
i had just a while ago.
its pretty much my fault..
according to my dad, everything always is.
i'm never good enough for anything or anyone.
i hate days when i have so much time
that i just think about everything..
like today...
washing the car, driving around. sitting at barnes and nobles.
i thought of everything,
what would i do if i moved to germany,12 hours away by plane?
what would happen if he did move back??
why do i even try to get someone to like me when
they most likely won't.. and only think i'm cute and nothing more?
why do i have to lose everything??
why do people have to die?
why is life so short??
stupid thoughts like that...
sitting here listening to music.
postal service, death cab.. i get sad..
looking through old pictures
from before... i want to cry..
sometimes i hate feeling...
my grandpa told me stories last nite
before i went to bed..
about how he met my grandma
and how she was the "beautiful angel"
hanging clothes, and sitting next to him..
love.... true love..
they've been together ever since..
for.. 40 years or more...
i really don't remember..
its so beautiful..
how much he loves her..
he was telling me about how she never
learned to read or write, and while
doing this. he cried...
my grandma brags to all her friends
that her granddaughter is in college
and is going to become something..
why do i have to suck at life so bad??
haha..
if you really want to make fun of me
for posting an emo journal entry
this is the one...
i don't put my posts friends only
because i have nothing to hide.
this is who i am.. deal with it.
if you have a problem with it
don't hide your bitch ass face
behind some anonymous comment
or have people tell me what you have to say
come say it to my face.
don't stand there staring at me and talking to
other people about me.. come up to me and tell
me what you have to say about me..
if you read this.. ha.. thanks.
its really just me venting.
today was crap.
seeing certain people
and getting hugs makes me happy. :)
listening to death cab with christine
makes me happy. :)
sharing rice bowls with natalie makes me
happy. :)
seeing people who i have missed makes me
happy. :)
seeing some people hide behind their lies
and stupidness makes me feel bad for them.
grow the fuck up.
♥.♥.♥.