it feels so much more real than ever before
Have you ever had that feeling like everything is going so perfectly and it seems like nothing is going to change that? You know how when you feel like you can fly as high as the clouds but at the same time you are so afraid because you’ve never been so far [from home]? New places are scary…we are timid of new emotions…we spend so much time worrying that things will change and it scares us to death because for the first time everything seems ok.
I think people cut themselves short….like I think people tell themselves that they don’t deserve the best there is and then when they get something that they feel is the best-they freeze and they tell themselves that this cannot be happening to them. Instead of embracing the experience, they spend the whole time telling themselves this isn’t supposed to happen to them. Sometimes If people would just give it God, live in the moment, and smile when their heart tells them too…it would be a much happier world and people would actually get what they want. I don’t want to miss the best moments of my life because I was afraid to give myself something too good for the sole reason that I was afraid to lose it.
I’m the kind of girl who likes sweet kisses. I’m the kind of girl who lives for those late night phone calls…even when they wake me up…because to hear his voice as the last thing before you sleep makes your dreams so much sweeter. I’m the kind of girl who remembers every hug and every time he is the one who reaches for your hand. I’m the kind of girl who doesn’t need roses to make her smile…she just needs him. I’m the kind of girl who Isn’t going to remember the days…but the moments…the moments she lived in and the moments that made her feel like she was on top of the world.
With him, every moment is one where I feel like I’m top of the world and every kiss is sweet…Every hug is warm and every dream about him is the best of night.
Sure, someday things may change…we’re young…but the future will figure itself out, it doesn’t need me to draw it a map. All I have to do is live. All I have to do is remember those moments and live in them…all I have to do is give him my heart and trust that he feels the very same way.