AND IN A LITTLE WHILE WE'LL ONLY HAVE TO WAVE.
I don't know how else to start this off. but say HI. so, there. hi.
I'm a mess today. I feel like crap. My throat is killing me. Stupid illness. gawddddd. shoot me in the face. hey, nina got snakebites today. she did really good this time! haha no rolling around or freaking out. they look badassssss. I was there for moral support. Now ignore my hair...I finally washed it... :-x haha it was getting sick. In the first picture i'm beating her like a bitch that owes me money....
yessss. i remmeber when one of my ex friends got her lip pierced she flipped a bitch over it like it hurt so bad. then nina takes it like a pro. HAHA what a wimp. ok so in the bottom right picture you can see kind of a big yellow bag. its my new baby :-] anyway. I can't sleep. I'm thinking too much again. haha when i need to use my brain i can't because its always somewhere else but when i want to sleep its thinking. that didn't make sense...
I keep reminding myself that I am an adult now. I can make my own decisions and choose to ignore what my parents think. What they say matters and everything I just wish they could see that I'm growing up and I need to make mistakes and do stupid things so I know better later. I'm not going astray. I'm not doing drugs or fucking anyone. I'm just defining myself so later I feel secure enough to take on what I want to do.
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tomorrow i'm going to keep busy.
I have alot of ceramic pieces that need glazing. lots of glazing. I'm going to take it home and try to work on it. My mom is going to jacksonville i think so it'll just be me, molly and the baby at my house. I re-read billy collin's book of 180 extraordinary poems for everyday.. again. I'm deprived. on so many levels and at this point i think i'm just going to accept it and try to cope.
I wish i had a fucking clue as to what to go to school for... i wish someone would do it all for me. i'm so...
indecisive:
Adjective
1. Prone to or characterized by indecision; irresolute: an indecisive manager