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i'm home.
i hope it hits me soon that i am no longer in the perfect place that is governers school.
i barely cried yesterday and friday, as i watched my friends leave. saying goodbye to my roomie love was the worst part, that is when everyone realised i was not a cold hearted person. when i hugged my boys goodbye right before i left governers school with my parents, i was insanely miserable/tired/angry. my attra boys were the hardest to part from. i was excited though because i knew road trips will follow this, and that all my pittsburgh kids and i have a southside date on wednesday. victory.
these last five weeks have been some of the best in my life, and i will most likely forget all the retarded shit we did together, but that doesnt matter anymore.
i'm home.
i'm tired and i sleep on and off. but staying up until 6 in the morning to storm the boys dorm and cuddle with tommy and tim for the last time was a great reason not to.
on the way home peach wouldnt leave me alone, and i still couldnt cry. i woke up to aimee kissing my face, leaning over me in my car, in the tbones parking lot. i was confused, so i went back to bed. when i got home i felt tears coming, but just because peach killed my neck and i needed sleep. eventually i woke up to confusing text messages, mostly from tommy.
i slept some more, watched tv, and slept. then once again i somehow woke up to aimee kissing me and brittany on top of me. so we went out together, and then we got icecream, and went to dan's were i saw everyone.
i came home and i watched t.v.
and im home.
and i cant cry.
and i want to cry, because its over. but i cant.
i hope it hits me soon that i am no longer in the perfect place that is governers school.
i barely cried yesterday and friday, as i watched my friends leave. saying goodbye to my roomie love was the worst part, that is when everyone realised i was not a cold hearted person. when i hugged my boys goodbye right before i left governers school with my parents, i was insanely miserable/tired/angry. my attra boys were the hardest to part from. i was excited though because i knew road trips will follow this, and that all my pittsburgh kids and i have a southside date on wednesday. victory.
these last five weeks have been some of the best in my life, and i will most likely forget all the retarded shit we did together, but that doesnt matter anymore.
i'm home.
i'm tired and i sleep on and off. but staying up until 6 in the morning to storm the boys dorm and cuddle with tommy and tim for the last time was a great reason not to.
on the way home peach wouldnt leave me alone, and i still couldnt cry. i woke up to aimee kissing my face, leaning over me in my car, in the tbones parking lot. i was confused, so i went back to bed. when i got home i felt tears coming, but just because peach killed my neck and i needed sleep. eventually i woke up to confusing text messages, mostly from tommy.
i slept some more, watched tv, and slept. then once again i somehow woke up to aimee kissing me and brittany on top of me. so we went out together, and then we got icecream, and went to dan's were i saw everyone.
i came home and i watched t.v.
and im home.
and i cant cry.
and i want to cry, because its over. but i cant.