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its a bummer when you realize what you had isnt what you thought it was.
anyways, im really happy right now. im doing a lot of stuff with my family, because hey they are the ones who are going to be there for you in the end. and ive been organizing everything for school, im actually excited to go back and get my life started. im ready to grow up. i work way too much for my own good and i honestly dont know where all my money goes. oh thats right, my car and my phone. ive been kind of a homebody, i guess that doesnt make me a true friend. but i need to be selfish because i have had to deal with a lot of tough stuff lately and im the one whos going to be there for me, no one else. maybe one day down the road, i can go back to being a "good friend" but at least ill always have me, and i all i need to get through the hard spots are me is what ive learned. thank god for vigil, hes really been there and it helps, alot. i know how important it is to be independent but hes been my biggest fan right now, and i thank god for that.
ive also learned that people love drama and lies. and im overrrr it. im over the rumor mill and the grapevine. yeah, im aware its everywhere and it just gets more pathetic down the line, but its at a point know where i can sit back and look at it and be like "wow i cant believe i was ever involved in that."
i really like when the weather gets cold. it makes me introspective.
anyways, im really happy right now. im doing a lot of stuff with my family, because hey they are the ones who are going to be there for you in the end. and ive been organizing everything for school, im actually excited to go back and get my life started. im ready to grow up. i work way too much for my own good and i honestly dont know where all my money goes. oh thats right, my car and my phone. ive been kind of a homebody, i guess that doesnt make me a true friend. but i need to be selfish because i have had to deal with a lot of tough stuff lately and im the one whos going to be there for me, no one else. maybe one day down the road, i can go back to being a "good friend" but at least ill always have me, and i all i need to get through the hard spots are me is what ive learned. thank god for vigil, hes really been there and it helps, alot. i know how important it is to be independent but hes been my biggest fan right now, and i thank god for that.
ive also learned that people love drama and lies. and im overrrr it. im over the rumor mill and the grapevine. yeah, im aware its everywhere and it just gets more pathetic down the line, but its at a point know where i can sit back and look at it and be like "wow i cant believe i was ever involved in that."
i really like when the weather gets cold. it makes me introspective.