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i need to get this off my chest .
i know i've been a bitch lately .
i'm extremely sorry .
but please understand ; i'm not perfect .
and i know you don't expect me to be either .
i'm sorry for taking out attitude towards you .
i've been having issues at home & they're stressing me out like no tomorrow.
i know it's no excuse for taking it out on you .
but i've been trying .
and if you knew half the shit i've been through these past few days ;
you'd probably understand .
also ;
i know i say often that i find a boy attractive.
but i promise to change that.
someone who i kind of look up to for being a strong person told me i needed to grow up.
and i see where they're coming from.
again ; please understand i'm not perfect .
i do have flaws & i'm doing my best to take care of them .
i currently am talking to someone that i think i'm going to last with .
so this might be my turning point ?
and i know i just can't change over night ;
but i hope to have changed atleast by the end of summer .
and finally ;
i hate the way i look .
someone trade places with me, please?
i need to lose alot of weight ; which i realize.
i also need to gain more of an ass than i have.
because as a white girl ; i wasn't blessed with junk in the trunk.
i also need to become ALOT prettier .
which ; unless i either cake on make up or get a face transplant ; is pretty much impossible.
i hate being so insecure .