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So tomorrow night is the awards night, the night where we all find out who gets the money.
my portfolio went national, but so did alot of other kids.
i am not being optamistic about it.
i wish i had a camera to show you all the new pieces i finished.
today sook came to my house upset and disillutional.
but we talked about it.
we laughed about it.
and i completely understand her.
and in the mist of talking about everything, i thought about myself and how much i have changed.
i used to be so trendy, so hip.
and now, i could care less if i shaved my legs or cut my hair off.
i could care less about meeting expectations and making people proud.
i could care less that i didnt have the money to go online and get all these stupid scene band shirts and go to shows.
seriously
and now..
what happend?
how did i get here?
my portfolio went national, but so did alot of other kids.
i am not being optamistic about it.
i wish i had a camera to show you all the new pieces i finished.
today sook came to my house upset and disillutional.
but we talked about it.
we laughed about it.
and i completely understand her.
and in the mist of talking about everything, i thought about myself and how much i have changed.
i used to be so trendy, so hip.
and now, i could care less if i shaved my legs or cut my hair off.
i could care less about meeting expectations and making people proud.
i could care less that i didnt have the money to go online and get all these stupid scene band shirts and go to shows.
seriously
and now..
what happend?
how did i get here?