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too depressed to tell the truth.
tomorrow is my sister's graduation ceremony for montclair state. it's early in the morning. a year ago, i would've skipped it. maybe not a year ago... but thankfully, i'm better than that, at least.
i bought 4 tickets to a boys night out concert on my birthday-- next friday, may 26th. i don't know who's coming yet.
i'll be 20. two decades. closing the second chapter of my life? who knows. i have to get my shit together. register for summer I, summer II, and fall. i must take: the west and the world, intro to literature, us: through reconstruction, us: after reconstruction, intro to philosophy, book and magazine editing, first year seminar (again). at least i got my grades though. besides failing first year (which will be changed after i take it again and pass it), i got a B- in western civ and an A in writing prose. i'm happy about that.
if you regulate how the blood is pumping
through the veins
from my heart into my head,
in time this blood supply
will change me from red to white.
every thought that you know i'm thinking
may as well be the knife stuck in my back
this taxing fever makes me gravitate
to this place
this is still my life and not yours to defy
anyone in their right mind would never let you inside.
tomorrow is my sister's graduation ceremony for montclair state. it's early in the morning. a year ago, i would've skipped it. maybe not a year ago... but thankfully, i'm better than that, at least.
i bought 4 tickets to a boys night out concert on my birthday-- next friday, may 26th. i don't know who's coming yet.
i'll be 20. two decades. closing the second chapter of my life? who knows. i have to get my shit together. register for summer I, summer II, and fall. i must take: the west and the world, intro to literature, us: through reconstruction, us: after reconstruction, intro to philosophy, book and magazine editing, first year seminar (again). at least i got my grades though. besides failing first year (which will be changed after i take it again and pass it), i got a B- in western civ and an A in writing prose. i'm happy about that.
if you regulate how the blood is pumping
through the veins
from my heart into my head,
in time this blood supply
will change me from red to white.
every thought that you know i'm thinking
may as well be the knife stuck in my back
this taxing fever makes me gravitate
to this place
this is still my life and not yours to defy
anyone in their right mind would never let you inside.