that doesn't make any sense.
I guess I'm sort of adapting to 'real life', or whatever... maybe I've been taking the Prozac long enough for it to actually make a difference (besides no sex drive, of course). It's true, I've missed a few classes, but I'm working with my tutor and Dr. Camaratta (though sometimes I wonder if she's been full of shit for the past four years)... I'm tutoring this third grader named John, who is a student at the school in which my mother teaches. I go to his house three times a week, an hour each time, and help him with his homework. It's so ridiculously simple. He's such a nice kid, too-- he's smart and really friendly, unlike other nine-year-olds who whine and treat authority like crap. $20 an hour is nice as well.
Thinking about Lindsay is hard. Random. But a constant in my mind. I wish there was a way I could make her not hate me... but not love me. I'm a different person now. I may have the same bad habits, but I am growing up. I wish I knew her now. She's grown up, too. I was so in love with her when I knew her... I know it is always possible to fall in love again, by getting to know her all over again. But I'm scared. So baby-steps. And if she wants nothing to do with me, I would get it. It's pretty common.
I wasn't trying to speak irrationally. I'm not saying that I want to be with her. I just really fucking want to know who she is...
I realized that I really do cherish my family, although I hate them all half of the time. I hold them so close because I'm so lonely... and family is, well, family. You're obligated to be there. My family is my only sure thing. I'm so sick of crying about how I have no social life and I only have 13 people on my buddy list-- I speak to a slim percentage. I'm afraid to go out and do things. When you're gone from all you know, you lose it. It finds someone better, something better. You are left with nothing.
'That 70s Show' is incredible.
"We've known each other since we were kids, so we know all the good stuff and all the not so good stuff about each other... I can't imagine feeling about anyone else the way I feel about you... because I love you. I've always loved you. And I want to make you a promise: No matter what happens... good or bad... I will always love you."
Thinking about Lindsay is hard. Random. But a constant in my mind. I wish there was a way I could make her not hate me... but not love me. I'm a different person now. I may have the same bad habits, but I am growing up. I wish I knew her now. She's grown up, too. I was so in love with her when I knew her... I know it is always possible to fall in love again, by getting to know her all over again. But I'm scared. So baby-steps. And if she wants nothing to do with me, I would get it. It's pretty common.
I wasn't trying to speak irrationally. I'm not saying that I want to be with her. I just really fucking want to know who she is...
I realized that I really do cherish my family, although I hate them all half of the time. I hold them so close because I'm so lonely... and family is, well, family. You're obligated to be there. My family is my only sure thing. I'm so sick of crying about how I have no social life and I only have 13 people on my buddy list-- I speak to a slim percentage. I'm afraid to go out and do things. When you're gone from all you know, you lose it. It finds someone better, something better. You are left with nothing.
'That 70s Show' is incredible.
"We've known each other since we were kids, so we know all the good stuff and all the not so good stuff about each other... I can't imagine feeling about anyone else the way I feel about you... because I love you. I've always loved you. And I want to make you a promise: No matter what happens... good or bad... I will always love you."