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can you still remember how it seemed that we could live forever in a lover's dream? and falling was the best part. but now you know the things you cling to. your heart can start to grow. you're walking away. you were my setting sun and now you're every view. let me believe that you believe in me. seeing you in summer, the way we were, when you were seventeen. you know, i much prefer you walking away.
so much... hasn't really happened. i started college back in september. i requested a medical leave of absence in november. just couldn't do it. waves of depression, water in my lungs. now, i don't have much of a life. although we broke up, or something, i spend my time at anne marie's house. it's hard to talk about her. you are a sponge, minus the simplicity. i've registered for three classes starting in january. i'm fully equipped with a tutor to guide me through. this is my last chance, i can't afford to screw it up. companionship is rare. i have three friends and they're probably sick of my bullshit by now. my sister's moving out in less than two weeks. i haven't seen my father smile at me in months.
when did this happen? how could i have gotten so very lost without realizing it?
so much... hasn't really happened. i started college back in september. i requested a medical leave of absence in november. just couldn't do it. waves of depression, water in my lungs. now, i don't have much of a life. although we broke up, or something, i spend my time at anne marie's house. it's hard to talk about her. you are a sponge, minus the simplicity. i've registered for three classes starting in january. i'm fully equipped with a tutor to guide me through. this is my last chance, i can't afford to screw it up. companionship is rare. i have three friends and they're probably sick of my bullshit by now. my sister's moving out in less than two weeks. i haven't seen my father smile at me in months.
when did this happen? how could i have gotten so very lost without realizing it?