Mar 16, 2009 21:16
I just want to play with cars. Vroom Vroom. I'm stuck in a desk writing papers about things that I may find somewhat interesting but not exciting or challenging, and the only challenging part is actually doing the work. This semester, I can honestly say there isn't a single class I enjoy. How foolish. I'm at USM in the business program because I was pressured to take over the family business, and if I were to get financial assistance for school it was to be in the immediate five years following my graduation. So basically, things sit where they do because of everyone's wishes but my own. I've been somewhat of a puppet I guess.
I'm going to do only what I want to do from now on, not what I can bear to trudge through to "make the most" of my opportunity and satisfy my parents. I want to live in Portland, so I will. I want to learn automotives and be covered in gasoline and motor oil, so I'll enroll at the tech program at SMCC or take summer classes in auburn this summer. I want to piss away all my money into a car in an effort to make it faster and better to look at, so I will. I want to spend my time with Kaitlynn Gatchell right now, so I will.
I don't want to fear the future, so I won't.