this is not an entry of breakup sadness.
"So here's your song...
And the words you asked for but I'm sure it's not what you wanted.
It's not beautiful or gracious, it's a warning to anyone who has yet to meet you.
Don't tell me you're sorry
because I'm pretty sure I promised myself I would never ever again believe a single thing you say.
Seek your attention elsewhere tell him how many times someone stepped on your heart.
But he'll have to take a fucking number,
because those eyes are an amazing thing,
but who knows, on you, what's even fucking real...
Go ahead say it, tell him how you were crushed.
How perfect you can be but don't forget to mention how far you can spread your legs.
I'm sure that will get their fucking attention.
Yea I'm sure, yeah I'm sure you'll get what you need.
Fuck Fuck Fuck. And we all know the things you've done.
No need to tell us cause everyone everyone everyone fucking talks.
Oh yeah, waste your tears on somebody else."
^^^my life as it currently sits^^^
I was holding back out of respect for her, but that's gone now so it doesn't matter. I want everyone to know, so everyone can keep their guard up. I don't want her to do this to anyone ever again.
I dated Kait, from September 13th until roughly four days ago. We technically broke up in December, but continued trying to work through it because the "title and pressures were scaring her". Halloween in Portland, we went to a party, Kait kept coming on to me in public like she always does which can be frustrating, I went along with it. A few minutes later she pulled our mutual friend, Dan Myrbeck into a back room and proceeded to cheat on me with him This is the first known instance of FIVE men I know now, but the tally keeps growing, and I'm pretty sure I know number SIX.
This Sunday, I told her I loved her. The following day, Lauren McElwain informed me she has been sleeping with her friend Jaeger Wells. I confronted Kait, and she lied to the bitter end. She's still saying nearly all the circumstances are false. I called Jaeger (poor bastard) who informed me Kait had tried to fuck him because she wanted to "take their relationship to the next level", and he denied because he has morals greater than mine. I wish I could wash my mouth out with acid.
I don't know about the other men, but I know the stories of two. Dan was under the impression kait was leaving me for him, because she was unhappy and wanted him instead. She told me no such conversation happened. Jaeger was under the impression they were dating, and didn't know I existed. Kait still insists she talked about me all the time, and he was well aware we were still involved, and says it never went past kissing. They were sexually involved.
I only know she cheated on me with these five for a fact, but I know there are others. I know because it is the opposite of what she says. I have lived in a mirage for far too fucking long. I was blinded by love, and I feel so ignorant and sick it's unbelievable. Don't worry friends, you won't have to hear me bitch about Kait anymore.
No one has any right to annihilate another human the way she has. I am in a thousand pieces for everyone to see. I'll bounce back quick enough, but my trust won't. I now question everything. Nothing is what it seems, there are lies everywhere. I am terrified this will change what I love about myself.
I will persevere.
Fuck you. With every cell in my body, every thought in my fucking brain, every electrical signal coursing through me. Fuck you.
And the words you asked for but I'm sure it's not what you wanted.
It's not beautiful or gracious, it's a warning to anyone who has yet to meet you.
Don't tell me you're sorry
because I'm pretty sure I promised myself I would never ever again believe a single thing you say.
Seek your attention elsewhere tell him how many times someone stepped on your heart.
But he'll have to take a fucking number,
because those eyes are an amazing thing,
but who knows, on you, what's even fucking real...
Go ahead say it, tell him how you were crushed.
How perfect you can be but don't forget to mention how far you can spread your legs.
I'm sure that will get their fucking attention.
Yea I'm sure, yeah I'm sure you'll get what you need.
Fuck Fuck Fuck. And we all know the things you've done.
No need to tell us cause everyone everyone everyone fucking talks.
Oh yeah, waste your tears on somebody else."
^^^my life as it currently sits^^^
I was holding back out of respect for her, but that's gone now so it doesn't matter. I want everyone to know, so everyone can keep their guard up. I don't want her to do this to anyone ever again.
I dated Kait, from September 13th until roughly four days ago. We technically broke up in December, but continued trying to work through it because the "title and pressures were scaring her". Halloween in Portland, we went to a party, Kait kept coming on to me in public like she always does which can be frustrating, I went along with it. A few minutes later she pulled our mutual friend, Dan Myrbeck into a back room and proceeded to cheat on me with him This is the first known instance of FIVE men I know now, but the tally keeps growing, and I'm pretty sure I know number SIX.
This Sunday, I told her I loved her. The following day, Lauren McElwain informed me she has been sleeping with her friend Jaeger Wells. I confronted Kait, and she lied to the bitter end. She's still saying nearly all the circumstances are false. I called Jaeger (poor bastard) who informed me Kait had tried to fuck him because she wanted to "take their relationship to the next level", and he denied because he has morals greater than mine. I wish I could wash my mouth out with acid.
I don't know about the other men, but I know the stories of two. Dan was under the impression kait was leaving me for him, because she was unhappy and wanted him instead. She told me no such conversation happened. Jaeger was under the impression they were dating, and didn't know I existed. Kait still insists she talked about me all the time, and he was well aware we were still involved, and says it never went past kissing. They were sexually involved.
I only know she cheated on me with these five for a fact, but I know there are others. I know because it is the opposite of what she says. I have lived in a mirage for far too fucking long. I was blinded by love, and I feel so ignorant and sick it's unbelievable. Don't worry friends, you won't have to hear me bitch about Kait anymore.
No one has any right to annihilate another human the way she has. I am in a thousand pieces for everyone to see. I'll bounce back quick enough, but my trust won't. I now question everything. Nothing is what it seems, there are lies everywhere. I am terrified this will change what I love about myself.
I will persevere.
Fuck you. With every cell in my body, every thought in my fucking brain, every electrical signal coursing through me. Fuck you.