welcome back me.
..so yeah im back.
im back because i realized i have so much inside of me that i have to say that i needed this piece of shit to let it all out. well. iv read my past entrys and it seemed like idk i was so much happier last year. So much has changed since last yera aswell. it seems like right after 9th grade finished everyone just split.Its funny how u can lose a friend so fast. Iv lost my friends simply just because we didnt have the same classes this year or we just lacked in communication. For example last this year seems like everyone got closer with other/diff people. Right now i dont even know who my real friends are. Sometimes i hate my friends and wished i can get new ones, but then you realize its not easy to just pull out new friends our of your ass. Lately or this whole year not even since about last year around nov me and my family, hold on no ever since my step dad moved in with us my life has turned upside down and fallen to pieces. He's ruined everything i had everything i belived in. I hate how he swears he's #1 and knows everything and how he can just be unfair and unreasonable. I hate how one person can change your life forever. I come to the conclusion that its easy to lose anyone inparticular, friends, my childhood, my freedom. I hate how my mom cant make her how decisions and how they cant trust me. My mom has always trusted me and has always let me do w/e i want but ever since this asshole charlie came to the pic now its like she cant use her own brain. the other day i asked her if i can to hollywood beach with tati n maria * note that my mom lets me do anything maria n tati do* i asked if i can go to the beach with tati,maria,her brother,alex,diego , and my mom knows them a little n shes let me play basketball with them befor n stuff like that so she said YES i could go but then charlie was like "but theyre old enough to buy drinks..and this n what r u guys gonna do at night so far ,probablly go drinking...this and that and idk what" n then my mom said no, omg wtf dumb bitch think for urself dont fuckin listen to him omg im never gonna forget that , that shit pissed me off so much. it pisses me off becase that same fuckin week i had poured all my feelings to her about how much i hated him and how she cant make desisions on her own and yet look what she does. wtf. jesus christ im so mad right now just talking about it. i need friends. good truthworthy friends. u know what want a friend. a friend that fucking cares and calls me n checks up on me when i seem all "blah" or who is there for me. a fucking friend who just fucking cares. ugh. someone who i can count on always being there for me n shit like that.fuck i cant trust anyone now and days. i hate high school. *breathes* , im good. bye guys.
im back because i realized i have so much inside of me that i have to say that i needed this piece of shit to let it all out. well. iv read my past entrys and it seemed like idk i was so much happier last year. So much has changed since last yera aswell. it seems like right after 9th grade finished everyone just split.Its funny how u can lose a friend so fast. Iv lost my friends simply just because we didnt have the same classes this year or we just lacked in communication. For example last this year seems like everyone got closer with other/diff people. Right now i dont even know who my real friends are. Sometimes i hate my friends and wished i can get new ones, but then you realize its not easy to just pull out new friends our of your ass. Lately or this whole year not even since about last year around nov me and my family, hold on no ever since my step dad moved in with us my life has turned upside down and fallen to pieces. He's ruined everything i had everything i belived in. I hate how he swears he's #1 and knows everything and how he can just be unfair and unreasonable. I hate how one person can change your life forever. I come to the conclusion that its easy to lose anyone inparticular, friends, my childhood, my freedom. I hate how my mom cant make her how decisions and how they cant trust me. My mom has always trusted me and has always let me do w/e i want but ever since this asshole charlie came to the pic now its like she cant use her own brain. the other day i asked her if i can to hollywood beach with tati n maria * note that my mom lets me do anything maria n tati do* i asked if i can go to the beach with tati,maria,her brother,alex,diego , and my mom knows them a little n shes let me play basketball with them befor n stuff like that so she said YES i could go but then charlie was like "but theyre old enough to buy drinks..and this n what r u guys gonna do at night so far ,probablly go drinking...this and that and idk what" n then my mom said no, omg wtf dumb bitch think for urself dont fuckin listen to him omg im never gonna forget that , that shit pissed me off so much. it pisses me off becase that same fuckin week i had poured all my feelings to her about how much i hated him and how she cant make desisions on her own and yet look what she does. wtf. jesus christ im so mad right now just talking about it. i need friends. good truthworthy friends. u know what want a friend. a friend that fucking cares and calls me n checks up on me when i seem all "blah" or who is there for me. a fucking friend who just fucking cares. ugh. someone who i can count on always being there for me n shit like that.fuck i cant trust anyone now and days. i hate high school. *breathes* , im good. bye guys.