Expectations.

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I did it.
I finally told Isaac I didn't want him anymore.
He's too much hurt for my little heart to handle.
I love the boy, but, he's just too much work.
He's got alot of growing up to do.

I told him about Dustin.
Everything.
I don't have to hide it anymore.
I feel relief throughout.
I'm so much less stressed.

Dustin is wonderful.
But, this time, I'm just going to wait it out.
What we have is fun and different.
There isn't any bonding, restricting relationship.
I do what I want, and he comes and spends the night.
He does what he wants, but ends up next to me in the end.

It really is fun.
I enjoy it.
He doesn't bring me down.
He just tells me good things.
We help eachother, and I like that.

This New Years is going to be wonderful.
This new year, is going to change me. I can see it now.
It's okay, I could use a little rearranging.