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"There are certain people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your life, and you'll meet maybe four or five of these people in a span of 80 years. But there's still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of those lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. You will remember having conversations with this person that never actually happened. You will recall sexual trysts with this person that never technically occured. This is because the individual who embodies your personal definition of love does not technically exist. This person is real and the feelings are real-but you create the context. And the context is everything. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherantly different than anyone else, and they're often just the person you meet the first time you really, really want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else." --Killing Yourself to live.
im putting this here so i remember it.
i really liked this book.
im putting this here so i remember it.
i really liked this book.