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i cant sleep. i wish the world would leave me the fuck alone already. ive got 2 jobs now, plus babysitting, plus school, plus doing absolutely nothing. i feel like i dont enjoy life anymore. im either working, sleeping, or stressing myself out over ridiulous things. this year has started off crappy. anything good that ever happens will never last. theres no sense in ever loving anyone or anything, because no matter what it will never last. and i still cant believe it and i still dont know why. i really miss the way things used to be. there actually was a point in time where i was content with my life but now i look back on those days and wish they would come back. it sucks, it sucks horribly. i cannot wait to finish high school & get the fuck out of here. i will miss a few people, but everyone else i could give a rats ass about. honestly. even people that im close with drive me up the wall because theyre so selfish. i feel like i do a lot for people i care about and lately, nobody has done shit for me except for justin spadoni. i just know that the day i move, im gonna say fuck you & i will never come back to this town. i downright refuse to. lithia has done nothing for me, it hasnt taught me anything, except how fucking shitty people are. fuck this town, and fuck everyone in it.