The conversation that (never really) happened.
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Harry and Cho's last conversation...! How sad.
Harry> *waiting at assigned place*
Cho> *sees Harry and comes over* ...Hi, Harry. *small smile*
Cho> How are you...?
Harry> *looks a bit forlorn but attempts a small smile back at her* Hi, Cho.. I'm... *shrugs lamely*
Harry> *sitting on a bench* Sit down..?
Cho> *nods and sits* I-- I'm just really, really sorry about your loss. It's really hard losing someone you love-- I mean, you know what I was like when Cedric died. I was a ruddy -mess-.
Harry> *sniffs a litle and wipes his eyes* I... Yeah.. I'm.. I'm sorry about that, Cho....
Harry> I was a bit of a git...
Harry> I mean, I was.. upset about him too but I... didn't want to talk about it.
Harry> And you did and...
Harry> *sighs*
Harry> *looks at her sadly*
Cho> *frowns a bit, handing him a tissue* Don't...don't worry about it. That's in the past, and-- just...don't worry.
Cho> I'm just sorry that I was...so irrational, and...oh! *hugs him, sniffling*
Harry> *rubs his eyes with the tissue as he's still trying not to cry again and hugs her back, rather tightly and gratefully*
Harry> I..
Harry> Um...
Harry> *pulls back after a moment, looking awkard*
Cho> ...Oh. Um. *let's go?*
Cho> Er-- yeah. *straightens up a bit*
Harry> *sheepish smile at her but still looking sad*
Harry> I just.. miss him, you know?
Harry> I'm sure you know....
Cho> I'd think you were crazy if you didn't. I mean...is there any way we could get him -back-, perhaps?
* Harry is being logged
Harry> I.. I don't know.. Hermione was working on something and .. I'm friends with one of the goddesses.. She offered help... But.. Well.. Here he -can- come back, yeah? It's.. the only reason I'm not.. completely.... I.. I'd.. be more upset if I didn't think there was a good chance.
Harry> It.. still hurts though. I.. heard what happened .. to him..
Harry> *looks angrier for a moment*
Cho> Bloody ridiculous. She's even more of a coward for running away, if you ask me. Your feelings are justified, but just the fact that it was his own aunt..!
Harry> She... *falters*
Harry> *quietly* She's... hurt him before.
Cho> *gently places a hand on his shoulder, frowning* That-- that's horrible, Harry.
Harry> *clutching the tissue tightly in his hand* She claims to love him then uses Unforgivables on him.. she's killed.. tortured.. so many people...
Harry> *shaking a bit*
Cho> *shakes her head, looking down* There has to be something done about this.
Harry> *is more numb than angry still* I.. I just.. I can't think of her right now... First I need him back. I -need- him back, Cho.
Harry> *rubs his forehead distractedly, frowning to himself*
Cho> *uneasy, but looks at him with a sense of reassurance* We'll get him back. And if you need me to help out, just say the word, Harry.
Harry> *shakes his head as if trying to clear it and looks at her with a strained expression, lightly gripping her lower arm* Thanks, Cho..
Harry> I.. I wish we'd spoken before under.. different circumstances.
Harry> *sighs tiredly*
Cho> *hugs (and lets go this time!)* It's alright.
Harry> *dully* I.. Everything was going so well and then...
Harry> *looks at her* I'm sorry.. I know he'll be able to come back.. sometime.. I'm.. I should... keep remembering that, yeah?
Cho> *nods slightly* Just-- don't give up.
Harry> Did.. every day seem like.. forever when.. after Cedric....?
Cho> *sighs, and looks out onto the park scenery* I felt like I was just living without meaning, as pathetic as that seems. Like...I had recieved a Dementor's Kiss, or something.
Cho> I couldn't -think-.
Cho> And I had tried to go on, and live my life...date other people...*looks at him, slightly embarrassed and pained*
Harry> *bites his lip slightly and nods a little*
Harry> It's.. yeah.. I didn't understand that at the time but I....
Harry> *sniffs and stops talking*
Cho> I just want to let you know that I really, genuinely -did- like you, Harry. I really did.
Harry> *hollowly, looking out away from her* But I wasn't Cedric.
Cho> *sighs* I know, I know, it's just-- you were someone that was completely opposite from Cedric, in ways.
Cho> Which is probably why I was so attracted to you. I mean, it was like...like...
Harry> *looks at her, curiously*
Cho> ...like a breath of fresh air. I thought you would be someone that didn't remind me of him everyday. Funny how I turned out to be wrong, isn't it. *looks down*
Cho> And I...I don't know what happened, Harry. I just wanted to know the truth, and I should've -known- that you wouldn't want to talk about him. About everything that happened that day.
Harry> Oh. Yeah... Did you.. um... *pauses and rubs his head again as if it hurts* *quietly* I've been afraid of this happening for a while. Something.. -terrible-... happening. Did you.. ever get that feeling during the... when.... ..? *trails off*
Harry> *is more finding some common ground than wanting to bring up bad memories for her*
Cho> I... well, I vaguely remember, but-- I remember on the day of the Third Task...I was just -completely- horrible. I didn't want him to go.
Cho> *and, noticed the forehead rubbing* Headache, Harry?
Cho> *head
Harry> You didn't..? *puts his hand down* Oh.. It's just.. tired, I guess. I haven't been sleeping well.
Cho> *shakes her head* *frowns* Oh, Harry. It has to be a really rough time for you, right now.
Cho> Were you with him, at least, before...before he...
Cho> *doesn't finish sentence*
Harry> *swallows* I.. found out about it from.. someone else....
Harry> He was already... gone.
Harry> *suddenly look very shaky*
Harry> *looks
Cho> *starts sniffling* Oh, -Merlin-.
Harry> I.. I... He... I... *shivers*
Harry> *pauses to take a breath to compose himself again*
Harry> *very softly* I warned him not to go out alone.
Harry> I was so afraid that.. something...
Harry> Not that day but... I -had- warned him before.. Well.. Advised him, maybe.. not warned...
Harry> I.. erm...
Harry> *rubs the back of his head dejectedly*
Cho> *takes a big breath, looking very sad* But just the fact that you had a feeling about what was going to happen...it's just like you were feeling so helpless to stop it, but it still happened anyways. That-- oh, I know I'll probably tell you this a thousand times, but I'm so so sorry.
Harry> It's not your fault, is it? So don't be sorry... I.. It wasn't an actual specific feeling. *quieter* I was more... afraid of losing him.
Harry> After.. everything.
Harry> *short, slightly bitter laugh* I guess I'm not supposed to be happy.
Cho> But-- everyone deserves a chance at happiness, and you aren't an exception.
Harry> *rubs his nose* Maybe I was -too- happy then.
Harry> Maybe I had my chance and that's it.
Cho> No! That-- you shouldn't think like that, Harry....
Harry> *shrugs* It seems that whenever something nice happens then.. it just gets... lost again.
Cho> *sad* But you have to realize that you can't give up. Don't give up on him, Harry.
Harry> *sniffles and rubs his nose again* *quietly* I'm not. I can't.
Harry> I really love him, you know?
Cho> *nods and looks at him sincerely*
Cho> You two must have been extremely close. Will always be.
Harry> It's.. crazy, I know but... yeah.. it happened... Sometimes I still wonder how.
Cho> *slight crooked grin* Love works in mysterious ways.
Harry> Yeah. Love is ... nutters.
Harry> And comes out of nowhere.
Cho> I totally agree. It can bring the best and the worst out of us, too.
Harry> It's weird. Since I got with Draco we.. hardly ever fought. Not like we did before. We had a couple of.. problems along the way but since we married.. it's.. it -had- been.. great.
Harry> *looks sad again at his past tense*
Cho> *frowns* I...I really hate seeing you like this, Harry. *feels helpless*
Harry> *straightens up a bit, putting on a brave face* I.. I'm sorry. You.. If I'm making you uncomfortable....
Harry> Thanks for talking.
Harry> I'll... be alright.
Cho> *still frowning* No, I'm-- I'm alright. I just...I -know- how you're feeling, and...
Cho> it just...I still care about you, Harry, and just hate that this had to happen to you.
Harry> *nods slightly* And it's.. awful...
Harry> Bit hard for it not to, huh? With all those Death Eaters still.. loose.
Cho> *shudders*
Harry> *looks at her* You'll.. be careful, won't you?
Harry> I wouldn't want anything to happen to you either.
Cho> *nods slowly* Of course. ...You too, Harry. Make sure you're safe. ...Oh-- ...spoke too soon. *uneasy*
Harry> *shrugs* In a way, I almost don't care.
Cho> *frowns* Oh, don't say that, Harry. Please. ...Draco wouldn't want that to happen. *bites her lower lip*
Harry> *wipes his eyes and nods* Yeah... I know. I just feel so... lost.
Cho> You
Cho> That's why I'm here for you. And Ron. And Hermione. You have such a circle of supporting, loving people here for you, Harry. We'll help you get through this.
Harry> It still... *sighs*
Harry> I.. um.. I should go. Maybe we can.. talk later?
Cho> *small, reassuring smile* I'll make sure of it.
Cho> Take care, will you?
Harry> I'll try. *strained smile back*
Harry> *gets up* Night, Cho.
Cho> *slightly worried, but smiles* ...'Night, Harry. I'm...glad we talked.
Cho> *gets up as well*
Harry> *not sure whether to hug her again so instead just puts out his hand to shake*
Harry> See you later then.
Cho> *tilts her head to the side* *hugs*
Harry> *blinks but briefly hugs her back again*
Cho> *nods, and lets go* Yes, of course.
Harry> *smiles slightly and turns to go, walking off and waving back at her once before leaving*
Cho> *waves back, not really knowing that it's the last time she'll see him (alive)*
Harry and Cho's last conversation...! How sad.
Harry> *waiting at assigned place*
Cho> *sees Harry and comes over* ...Hi, Harry. *small smile*
Cho> How are you...?
Harry> *looks a bit forlorn but attempts a small smile back at her* Hi, Cho.. I'm... *shrugs lamely*
Harry> *sitting on a bench* Sit down..?
Cho> *nods and sits* I-- I'm just really, really sorry about your loss. It's really hard losing someone you love-- I mean, you know what I was like when Cedric died. I was a ruddy -mess-.
Harry> *sniffs a litle and wipes his eyes* I... Yeah.. I'm.. I'm sorry about that, Cho....
Harry> I was a bit of a git...
Harry> I mean, I was.. upset about him too but I... didn't want to talk about it.
Harry> And you did and...
Harry> *sighs*
Harry> *looks at her sadly*
Cho> *frowns a bit, handing him a tissue* Don't...don't worry about it. That's in the past, and-- just...don't worry.
Cho> I'm just sorry that I was...so irrational, and...oh! *hugs him, sniffling*
Harry> *rubs his eyes with the tissue as he's still trying not to cry again and hugs her back, rather tightly and gratefully*
Harry> I..
Harry> Um...
Harry> *pulls back after a moment, looking awkard*
Cho> ...Oh. Um. *let's go?*
Cho> Er-- yeah. *straightens up a bit*
Harry> *sheepish smile at her but still looking sad*
Harry> I just.. miss him, you know?
Harry> I'm sure you know....
Cho> I'd think you were crazy if you didn't. I mean...is there any way we could get him -back-, perhaps?
* Harry is being logged
Harry> I.. I don't know.. Hermione was working on something and .. I'm friends with one of the goddesses.. She offered help... But.. Well.. Here he -can- come back, yeah? It's.. the only reason I'm not.. completely.... I.. I'd.. be more upset if I didn't think there was a good chance.
Harry> It.. still hurts though. I.. heard what happened .. to him..
Harry> *looks angrier for a moment*
Cho> Bloody ridiculous. She's even more of a coward for running away, if you ask me. Your feelings are justified, but just the fact that it was his own aunt..!
Harry> She... *falters*
Harry> *quietly* She's... hurt him before.
Cho> *gently places a hand on his shoulder, frowning* That-- that's horrible, Harry.
Harry> *clutching the tissue tightly in his hand* She claims to love him then uses Unforgivables on him.. she's killed.. tortured.. so many people...
Harry> *shaking a bit*
Cho> *shakes her head, looking down* There has to be something done about this.
Harry> *is more numb than angry still* I.. I just.. I can't think of her right now... First I need him back. I -need- him back, Cho.
Harry> *rubs his forehead distractedly, frowning to himself*
Cho> *uneasy, but looks at him with a sense of reassurance* We'll get him back. And if you need me to help out, just say the word, Harry.
Harry> *shakes his head as if trying to clear it and looks at her with a strained expression, lightly gripping her lower arm* Thanks, Cho..
Harry> I.. I wish we'd spoken before under.. different circumstances.
Harry> *sighs tiredly*
Cho> *hugs (and lets go this time!)* It's alright.
Harry> *dully* I.. Everything was going so well and then...
Harry> *looks at her* I'm sorry.. I know he'll be able to come back.. sometime.. I'm.. I should... keep remembering that, yeah?
Cho> *nods slightly* Just-- don't give up.
Harry> Did.. every day seem like.. forever when.. after Cedric....?
Cho> *sighs, and looks out onto the park scenery* I felt like I was just living without meaning, as pathetic as that seems. Like...I had recieved a Dementor's Kiss, or something.
Cho> I couldn't -think-.
Cho> And I had tried to go on, and live my life...date other people...*looks at him, slightly embarrassed and pained*
Harry> *bites his lip slightly and nods a little*
Harry> It's.. yeah.. I didn't understand that at the time but I....
Harry> *sniffs and stops talking*
Cho> I just want to let you know that I really, genuinely -did- like you, Harry. I really did.
Harry> *hollowly, looking out away from her* But I wasn't Cedric.
Cho> *sighs* I know, I know, it's just-- you were someone that was completely opposite from Cedric, in ways.
Cho> Which is probably why I was so attracted to you. I mean, it was like...like...
Harry> *looks at her, curiously*
Cho> ...like a breath of fresh air. I thought you would be someone that didn't remind me of him everyday. Funny how I turned out to be wrong, isn't it. *looks down*
Cho> And I...I don't know what happened, Harry. I just wanted to know the truth, and I should've -known- that you wouldn't want to talk about him. About everything that happened that day.
Harry> Oh. Yeah... Did you.. um... *pauses and rubs his head again as if it hurts* *quietly* I've been afraid of this happening for a while. Something.. -terrible-... happening. Did you.. ever get that feeling during the... when.... ..? *trails off*
Harry> *is more finding some common ground than wanting to bring up bad memories for her*
Cho> I... well, I vaguely remember, but-- I remember on the day of the Third Task...I was just -completely- horrible. I didn't want him to go.
Cho> *and, noticed the forehead rubbing* Headache, Harry?
Cho> *head
Harry> You didn't..? *puts his hand down* Oh.. It's just.. tired, I guess. I haven't been sleeping well.
Cho> *shakes her head* *frowns* Oh, Harry. It has to be a really rough time for you, right now.
Cho> Were you with him, at least, before...before he...
Cho> *doesn't finish sentence*
Harry> *swallows* I.. found out about it from.. someone else....
Harry> He was already... gone.
Harry> *suddenly look very shaky*
Harry> *looks
Cho> *starts sniffling* Oh, -Merlin-.
Harry> I.. I... He... I... *shivers*
Harry> *pauses to take a breath to compose himself again*
Harry> *very softly* I warned him not to go out alone.
Harry> I was so afraid that.. something...
Harry> Not that day but... I -had- warned him before.. Well.. Advised him, maybe.. not warned...
Harry> I.. erm...
Harry> *rubs the back of his head dejectedly*
Cho> *takes a big breath, looking very sad* But just the fact that you had a feeling about what was going to happen...it's just like you were feeling so helpless to stop it, but it still happened anyways. That-- oh, I know I'll probably tell you this a thousand times, but I'm so so sorry.
Harry> It's not your fault, is it? So don't be sorry... I.. It wasn't an actual specific feeling. *quieter* I was more... afraid of losing him.
Harry> After.. everything.
Harry> *short, slightly bitter laugh* I guess I'm not supposed to be happy.
Cho> But-- everyone deserves a chance at happiness, and you aren't an exception.
Harry> *rubs his nose* Maybe I was -too- happy then.
Harry> Maybe I had my chance and that's it.
Cho> No! That-- you shouldn't think like that, Harry....
Harry> *shrugs* It seems that whenever something nice happens then.. it just gets... lost again.
Cho> *sad* But you have to realize that you can't give up. Don't give up on him, Harry.
Harry> *sniffles and rubs his nose again* *quietly* I'm not. I can't.
Harry> I really love him, you know?
Cho> *nods and looks at him sincerely*
Cho> You two must have been extremely close. Will always be.
Harry> It's.. crazy, I know but... yeah.. it happened... Sometimes I still wonder how.
Cho> *slight crooked grin* Love works in mysterious ways.
Harry> Yeah. Love is ... nutters.
Harry> And comes out of nowhere.
Cho> I totally agree. It can bring the best and the worst out of us, too.
Harry> It's weird. Since I got with Draco we.. hardly ever fought. Not like we did before. We had a couple of.. problems along the way but since we married.. it's.. it -had- been.. great.
Harry> *looks sad again at his past tense*
Cho> *frowns* I...I really hate seeing you like this, Harry. *feels helpless*
Harry> *straightens up a bit, putting on a brave face* I.. I'm sorry. You.. If I'm making you uncomfortable....
Harry> Thanks for talking.
Harry> I'll... be alright.
Cho> *still frowning* No, I'm-- I'm alright. I just...I -know- how you're feeling, and...
Cho> it just...I still care about you, Harry, and just hate that this had to happen to you.
Harry> *nods slightly* And it's.. awful...
Harry> Bit hard for it not to, huh? With all those Death Eaters still.. loose.
Cho> *shudders*
Harry> *looks at her* You'll.. be careful, won't you?
Harry> I wouldn't want anything to happen to you either.
Cho> *nods slowly* Of course. ...You too, Harry. Make sure you're safe. ...Oh-- ...spoke too soon. *uneasy*
Harry> *shrugs* In a way, I almost don't care.
Cho> *frowns* Oh, don't say that, Harry. Please. ...Draco wouldn't want that to happen. *bites her lower lip*
Harry> *wipes his eyes and nods* Yeah... I know. I just feel so... lost.
Cho> You
Cho> That's why I'm here for you. And Ron. And Hermione. You have such a circle of supporting, loving people here for you, Harry. We'll help you get through this.
Harry> It still... *sighs*
Harry> I.. um.. I should go. Maybe we can.. talk later?
Cho> *small, reassuring smile* I'll make sure of it.
Cho> Take care, will you?
Harry> I'll try. *strained smile back*
Harry> *gets up* Night, Cho.
Cho> *slightly worried, but smiles* ...'Night, Harry. I'm...glad we talked.
Cho> *gets up as well*
Harry> *not sure whether to hug her again so instead just puts out his hand to shake*
Harry> See you later then.
Cho> *tilts her head to the side* *hugs*
Harry> *blinks but briefly hugs her back again*
Cho> *nods, and lets go* Yes, of course.
Harry> *smiles slightly and turns to go, walking off and waving back at her once before leaving*
Cho> *waves back, not really knowing that it's the last time she'll see him (alive)*