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So, i woke up today, and i felt as if i was gunna die.
all i want to do is sleep, and lay around the house.
But i went to go see my dad anyway. I really wish i hadn't because
there was a whole in my moms face and a hole in my stomach in a picture that was on my dads bulletin board, and the only person who would of done it was my aunt, because she hates my mother, and she hates me because i told her a week ago i hated her.
so my dad freaked out because my mom took the pictures because she put them there beacuse they were her favorite. Then he called my mom stupid and said she put the whole in her face and my stomach. & i just sat there and listened, which brought back some chilhood memories because they'd always fight infront of me. Then my mom got upset and left, so i sat there and just tried to change the subject, but he kept nagging about it. Then since i told him i didnt care about the pictures, he started yelling at my telling me i didnt care about him, and that i "should just fucking leave". But i ignored it and called my mom to tell her to come back upstairs, then they started fighting more, and everything he said he denied. So i was like alright by dad, and he was like yeah by like you care, and that hurt me, so i walked out of the room crying and then he called my cell on the way home telling me that if i dont get back here to tell him im sorry, my phones getting shut off. & i told him for the fuck ahead and shut it off, im not going back there and saying sorry for something i didnt even do. He wanted me to say sorry for starting everything. The whole way home we arruged, and i started yelling, then crying, which made me feel even more sick. and i have a headache. and i feel like jumping off a cliff. My dad obviously still has some brain trama because thats deffinitly not himself. He like, has no heart at all. I dont like it either, thats not my dad. My dad hates to see my cry, & if he makes me cry, he feels like shit and hugs me. But he just kept yelling at me, so i threw the phone at my mom and havent answered it since. He hasnt even called me back. I miss my old dad.
wtf.