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I am so bitter. This can't be healthy. I'm glad I'm on vacation right now because I needed to relax... sadly I havent relaxed at all because I'm so incredibly stressed out that it hurts. I can't relax I can't just breathe. I'm looking forward to going home but I'm not looking forward to moving away I don't think... I can't be excited about it because I have no fucking idea what the hell it's going to be like and I really don't like the unknown. I don't want to leave the awesome friends I've made this past year, I don't want to be unemployed... I like having money. I don't like the idea of being practically isolated in a tiny dorm room with very little contact with the outside world.
I know I've always been tempted to move away and just go somewhere new, but then when the opportunity arises I'm in such a good spot that I don't want to leave.
I miss Jess, I want to live in the same city as him, but if I'm barely going to get chances to see him it's as if I'm still a thousand miles away from him, and without my friends you know? I don't like being all alone. I just want to know how it's gonna be.
I know I've always been tempted to move away and just go somewhere new, but then when the opportunity arises I'm in such a good spot that I don't want to leave.
I miss Jess, I want to live in the same city as him, but if I'm barely going to get chances to see him it's as if I'm still a thousand miles away from him, and without my friends you know? I don't like being all alone. I just want to know how it's gonna be.