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i wish i could help.. cos i feel like something is wrong.. i know i havent talk to you in a long time but... when i see you..you don't seem the same anymore.. i wish i could talk to you without it being uncomfortable.. i still love you.. we were like sisters when we were little.. and now i hardly know you.. and i pass you in the hall or on the side walk like i never knew you.. like i never knew youre favorite color.. or youre biggest fears... or like i wasnt there with you every first day of school we had up until 10th grade. its like we're stangers now. i hate it. i wish we never grew apart. but we did.
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and then theres you.. i see the pain in your eyes and i wish i could help.. but everything i say seems like it doesnt help at all.. and the only help you are really wanting is from him.. and i know i cant make u feel how he does.. and he doesnt even know how much a hug from him means to you. and when i see you almost in tears i want to cry for you cos i know that you've cried soo much over so many things.. and i know we've had a lot of falling outs and a lot of words said.. but i love you.. and i wouldnt wish any of what ur going thru on anyone.. but i know you will be strong and make it thru all of this.. you have a lot of friends that are here to help you.. and you know my number..
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today has been crazy. a lot of things are going thru my head.. i just don't know what i'm going to do..
i feel like the more i try to make my life "normal" again.. i just continue to make it worse.
yeah.