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i know how old and tiring these posts get but i kind of have to get this off my chest in some way that isn't to myself. it's just like the past couple of months, specifically, i've been getting more and more comfortable with the person it seems like i'll be for the rest of my life.
now, that's not to say i'm perfectly okay with who i am. because i'm not. i'm flawed and even when i'm not flawed, i lack the confidence to assert myself. i know i rub certain people the wrong way and, frankly, i'm not okay with that yet. i'm not at a point in my life where i can say i'm fine with myself.
what i can say is that i've come to an agreement with myself. a truce of sorts. i accept that i am myself. and i wish that things were different sometimes. i wish that certain people thought of me differently. i wish that i had the strength to confront my various flaws and demons. but i think i'm going to make it my personal goal in life to start DOING as opposed to thinking about what i could be doing, or should be doing, or what's wrong or right.
circumstances in my life aren't exactly ripe for this kind of new outlook. but if not now, then when?
now, that's not to say i'm perfectly okay with who i am. because i'm not. i'm flawed and even when i'm not flawed, i lack the confidence to assert myself. i know i rub certain people the wrong way and, frankly, i'm not okay with that yet. i'm not at a point in my life where i can say i'm fine with myself.
what i can say is that i've come to an agreement with myself. a truce of sorts. i accept that i am myself. and i wish that things were different sometimes. i wish that certain people thought of me differently. i wish that i had the strength to confront my various flaws and demons. but i think i'm going to make it my personal goal in life to start DOING as opposed to thinking about what i could be doing, or should be doing, or what's wrong or right.
circumstances in my life aren't exactly ripe for this kind of new outlook. but if not now, then when?