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tonight i laughed.
i spent it with some people that i am glad are in my life.
i went to quiznos with liz
picked up nikii
went to jumbos
met up with alan christian and ryan
went to barnes and noble
like the 8th graders we are
caramel flava
went to applebees
ate alot of food.
laughed.
i have 4 nights left in new jersey.
im getting really sad.
joe leaves on thursday for vermont.
thats real soon.
me and him have the most unstable friendship i think ever known to man kind. but whatever. it's understood we'll both be there for each other no matter what.
steve left today it's shitty but i will deal.
when he gets back i'll already be in pa.
it's a sucky situation but it'll work.
he's coming to get me the day he gets back,
we're going to his show
then hes going to come back and spend the weekend with me at school.
i never felt this way before
i don't deserve him
he didn't have to sit there with me for two hours and hold my hair back.
he didn't have to spend the night at liz's and sleep next to me and hold me.
he didn't have to do any of that.
but he did and i'm real lucky.
i deserve shitty guys who don't care about me
or creepy guys who just care way too much.
people who don't trust me
people who don't like spending alot of time with.
people who wouldn't like talking to me all the time.
people who wouldn't want anything to do with me.
people who would just want the physical aspect of a relationship out of me.
but this time it's different.
real different and i enjoy it.
neither of us know how this all happened.
we talk about this everyday
and how he thinks im gonna run
and how i think hes gonna run.
it is weird
but whatever we take it one day at a time.
this is all because he got into an accident and called fives on a seat.
i spent it with some people that i am glad are in my life.
i went to quiznos with liz
picked up nikii
went to jumbos
met up with alan christian and ryan
went to barnes and noble
like the 8th graders we are
caramel flava
went to applebees
ate alot of food.
laughed.
i have 4 nights left in new jersey.
im getting really sad.
joe leaves on thursday for vermont.
thats real soon.
me and him have the most unstable friendship i think ever known to man kind. but whatever. it's understood we'll both be there for each other no matter what.
steve left today it's shitty but i will deal.
when he gets back i'll already be in pa.
it's a sucky situation but it'll work.
he's coming to get me the day he gets back,
we're going to his show
then hes going to come back and spend the weekend with me at school.
i never felt this way before
i don't deserve him
he didn't have to sit there with me for two hours and hold my hair back.
he didn't have to spend the night at liz's and sleep next to me and hold me.
he didn't have to do any of that.
but he did and i'm real lucky.
i deserve shitty guys who don't care about me
or creepy guys who just care way too much.
people who don't trust me
people who don't like spending alot of time with.
people who wouldn't like talking to me all the time.
people who wouldn't want anything to do with me.
people who would just want the physical aspect of a relationship out of me.
but this time it's different.
real different and i enjoy it.
neither of us know how this all happened.
we talk about this everyday
and how he thinks im gonna run
and how i think hes gonna run.
it is weird
but whatever we take it one day at a time.
this is all because he got into an accident and called fives on a seat.