mann
dont even remember the last time i wrote in here
im 18
dont have a car
dont have a lisence
not even a permit
dont even know how to drive
its kinda pathedic where my life is headed
i am going to community college next year for the next two years
i really dont know what im gunna do
by the end of the year my best friend here is moving
i really just wanna move with her.
more then anything
but obviously i cant
i feel like people are slipping away and it is completely my fault bc i have pushed them away
A guy I cared about more then anything and who felt the same way no we werent in love bc we are smart and know you cant fall in love that fast
i pushed him away. i lied i smoked when i said i would stop i cheated
and i hate myself for it
im losing my connection with God and that KILLS more then anything else
I used to be so close to him and now we are hanging by a thread.
i feel empty when i walk down those halls everyday
People ask whats wrong and i dont even know what to say
honestly whats wrong is my life