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Well if you don't know whats going on in my life well here you go
This is a bulletin that basically covers everything
I don't want any sympathy it's just something I have to get out
ANd people always ask me whats wrong
and I honestly hate explaining things
So here's everything
Is it so bad that I almost started balling at work...
I just started thinking about how
Every single guy I like screws me over
every time
and every time I think this one will be better
In reality its worse...
I have so many things that are screwed up right now
I stood up for my best friend and now "everyone hates me"
Or so I'm told...
I am kinda glad I work because I can actually get my mind off some things
But being made fun even when kidding gets to me
I always laugh it off
But I hate it but thats how its been for as long as I can remember
People just have always made fun of me
and I am not really sure why
I have always been the ugly or fat one
soo thats how its been
yeah I am used to it
but I dont think thats a good thing
I am under way too much stress for my age
My family tells me that I am lazy
My sister tells me she hates me as does my brother
My mom always yells at me and says that I am not gunna get into any college and always acuses me of still smoking
My dad is disappointed in me because of what I did even though he does it everyday
I try my hardest and get 2 c's on my progress report
And that definatly doesn't meet standards
My sister is a straight A student and a swimmer a..
and thst something I just cant live up to
I'm not involved enough and that disappoints everyone in my family
I am basically a fuck up...
And I don't know what I can do to change
I try an try but nothing works
I guess
I had to move from my whole life a year ago
nothing has gone right
I wanna go home
I need a miracle to
change my mind about life because now
I cant even confide in my best friends
everyones either screwing me over saying shit or fighting
ughhhhh
I need something good so I am praying something changes my mind
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Yeah its bad but whatever its what I deal with
Basically everyone hates me bc i said peopel were bad friends because they just watched her get beat up
In my opinion thats a shitty friend.
So theres this boy (yes another one)
I know I am really bad with guys but problem
He has a girlfriend but his girlfriend is saying she doesnt want a boyfriend
behinde his back so maybe theres hope?
Hes cute idk it might be something to think about
So remember that one boy that didnt talk to me for a month
because i lied to him about smoking
Well I apologized and now we are kinda sorta talking
Just saying hi
I know it may be somthing really small
but it is alot better then we were.
And I really did like him alot.
Oh remember Jake?
Hmm well he is the one who saw sydney get beat up
Didnt help at all i mean call the principal or something
I said he was a bad friend
Now him and his brother (which is basically all i hang out with)
Yeah they all hate me because they are complete assholes.
They dont let sydney hang out with me when they are around her
Bitch to her that i have no right to be number 1 on her top
hmmm pretty sweet
I got two c's and my mom is dissapointed
I think its ridiculous what they do to me
Michigan schools were so much easier goddd
well Have a good TURKEY DAY GUYS
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