back to my old ways...
well well...
i never thought i would be coming back to this again. i guess i hit rock bottom. haha. but on a serious note, i decided to take a look through this old thing. i noticed how depressed and hopeless i felt. it makes me laugh to look at all of that shit. but the funny thing is that for some reason i am feeling like this again. i am falling back into the person i once was. i am trying to be different because of the new year. i thought i was doing a good job, but once you're doing good there is always something that fucks it up. im trying to stay focused, but it doesn't seem like it is working. i need to be better. so much better. anyway, i have decided that i will start to write in this every single day(or at least try to). i dont have that much time left in high school. second semester starts next tuesday. that means it the final stretch. im almost done. i will never speak of this, but it makes me so depressed. i want to go back in time and do everything i did wrong right, so that this future that is so close to being present is better than it is going to be. haha. that one hurt my head. hahaha go figure i would be listening to death cab.
i never thought i would be coming back to this again. i guess i hit rock bottom. haha. but on a serious note, i decided to take a look through this old thing. i noticed how depressed and hopeless i felt. it makes me laugh to look at all of that shit. but the funny thing is that for some reason i am feeling like this again. i am falling back into the person i once was. i am trying to be different because of the new year. i thought i was doing a good job, but once you're doing good there is always something that fucks it up. im trying to stay focused, but it doesn't seem like it is working. i need to be better. so much better. anyway, i have decided that i will start to write in this every single day(or at least try to). i dont have that much time left in high school. second semester starts next tuesday. that means it the final stretch. im almost done. i will never speak of this, but it makes me so depressed. i want to go back in time and do everything i did wrong right, so that this future that is so close to being present is better than it is going to be. haha. that one hurt my head. hahaha go figure i would be listening to death cab.