tell me where to stop, and tell me something that i dont know.
Ever get that feeling,
where.. you know that you shouldn't be there,
but you want to be so bad, even though you told yourself that you wouldn't be?
Yeah, that's kind of where i am right now.
With two completely differen't people. I hate it.
I don't understand why I have to pick the most
fucking retarded boys in the entire world. seriously.
Carly, you feel my pain, haha. It fucking sucksss.
I hate this boy. Okay, I don't.. not even a little bit, actually.
He drives me INSANEE, who does that to me?! NO ONEE.
& you know what? I absoultely love ittt. I'm not even sure why.
Like carly said, we AREN'T friends.
What are we? I couldn't tell ya.
I can tell you how we are,
we're two people that actaully do care for one another,
but to each other, we hardly ever show it.
& then we lie about it, and tell one another that we don't care about them,
when in reality, we care way more than we letting onto, and probably ever will let onto.
Which i find incredibly lame,
but.. haha, there's nothing i can do about that, now is there?
Actually, there probably is.. I could stop being so fucking stubborn, and being such an asshole to him.
But, where's the fun in that? OHYEAH, there wouldn't be any. Maybe i should stop? haha, i probably should.
I actually like this kid.
He claims he's 'over me.'
That he 'doesn't care about me.'
Well, what am I supose to do with that one?
Why in the hell should I waste my time on someone who's pushing me away?
Yeah, no thanks. I have better things to do.
In reality, I really don't. &, I wont necssarily keep at it, but.. I'm not going to completely let it go.
This is the 1st boy in awhile that .. for some reason,
I can't get off of my mind, no matter how hard I try.
& it's driving me crazy, he's throwing how i treated him, right back at me.
& I SEROUSLY CANNOT STAND ITTT.
I guess that's what I get, though?
There's no way that I've met my match, it's just NOT possible.
I'm kind of still, in a very odd way, hoping something comes from this.
I doubt it will, though. I just, I don't know. He's so against us,
he has completely torn apart ANY thought of us being together,
& he just, he won't listen to anything that i have to say.
& if he does.. he says that it doesn't mean anything, or that he doesn't care.
For christs sake kid, at least ACT like you give a shit.
It's like, HOTT & COLD. Fuckin' retardeddd. haha.
ERRMM. this boy, this boy. He claims he doesn't care, yet..
I got completely owend (bitchslapped) because
I was upset over a certain past event in my life, that's back yet again.
Haha, that's the other part of the
'i wanna be here, I shouldn't be here, why am I here?'
It's like, I wasn't good enough before.. but, all of the sudden I am again?
It's stupid, and it sucks. & I have nothing to, well.. keep me from making the same mistakes.
The thing that I thought I had, well.. that couldn't be more fucked up.
The reason I was so upset, it's a mixture of both things.
The reason, I havent been in a good mood lately.
This boy, he's slowly getting the best of me, & I sort of kinda need it to STOP.
Haha, NO ONE gets the best of Rachel Nichter, okay.. obviously he has.
Completely degrading me, & the thought of never speaking to him,
yeah, that never even came a little close to crossing my stupid little mind.
But, like I've said, he's the 1st person to make me feel ANYTHING after Chris,
& that's a big thing for me, obviously.
I've been through more guys than I can count this past year,
& he's been the ONLY one to mean ANYTHING to me,
& this has to go & happen to me. IT'S STUPID.
This is like, a big thing for me. Haha, as all of you know.
& I just want this to work, even if we dont become anything other than friends.
I'd be okay with it, I just want him in my life.. even after all the shit that's gone down between the two of us,
I can't help it. haha, there's something about him. I still haven't figured it out yet, but.. I love it.
I don't know, I guess we'll see where this goes.
I think I need to talk to my cousin, very badly.
I think he might be mad at me, I hope not.
I need him to HOPEFULLY make sense of this situation for me.
It's going to be the death of me, haha. SERIOUSLYY. :-\ .
haha, this just came from MEE!
the girl who claimed she didn't
want a boyfriend over summer,
& all she wanted to do was hook-up.
Hi, my name's Rachel,
& I let a boy get the best of me,
.. & you know what? I almost kind of like it.
Haha, I know.. I couldn't be MORE lame. =].
where.. you know that you shouldn't be there,
but you want to be so bad, even though you told yourself that you wouldn't be?
Yeah, that's kind of where i am right now.
With two completely differen't people. I hate it.
I don't understand why I have to pick the most
fucking retarded boys in the entire world. seriously.
Carly, you feel my pain, haha. It fucking sucksss.
I hate this boy. Okay, I don't.. not even a little bit, actually.
He drives me INSANEE, who does that to me?! NO ONEE.
& you know what? I absoultely love ittt. I'm not even sure why.
Like carly said, we AREN'T friends.
What are we? I couldn't tell ya.
I can tell you how we are,
we're two people that actaully do care for one another,
but to each other, we hardly ever show it.
& then we lie about it, and tell one another that we don't care about them,
when in reality, we care way more than we letting onto, and probably ever will let onto.
Which i find incredibly lame,
but.. haha, there's nothing i can do about that, now is there?
Actually, there probably is.. I could stop being so fucking stubborn, and being such an asshole to him.
But, where's the fun in that? OHYEAH, there wouldn't be any. Maybe i should stop? haha, i probably should.
I actually like this kid.
He claims he's 'over me.'
That he 'doesn't care about me.'
Well, what am I supose to do with that one?
Why in the hell should I waste my time on someone who's pushing me away?
Yeah, no thanks. I have better things to do.
In reality, I really don't. &, I wont necssarily keep at it, but.. I'm not going to completely let it go.
This is the 1st boy in awhile that .. for some reason,
I can't get off of my mind, no matter how hard I try.
& it's driving me crazy, he's throwing how i treated him, right back at me.
& I SEROUSLY CANNOT STAND ITTT.
I guess that's what I get, though?
There's no way that I've met my match, it's just NOT possible.
I'm kind of still, in a very odd way, hoping something comes from this.
I doubt it will, though. I just, I don't know. He's so against us,
he has completely torn apart ANY thought of us being together,
& he just, he won't listen to anything that i have to say.
& if he does.. he says that it doesn't mean anything, or that he doesn't care.
For christs sake kid, at least ACT like you give a shit.
It's like, HOTT & COLD. Fuckin' retardeddd. haha.
ERRMM. this boy, this boy. He claims he doesn't care, yet..
I got completely owend (bitchslapped) because
I was upset over a certain past event in my life, that's back yet again.
Haha, that's the other part of the
'i wanna be here, I shouldn't be here, why am I here?'
It's like, I wasn't good enough before.. but, all of the sudden I am again?
It's stupid, and it sucks. & I have nothing to, well.. keep me from making the same mistakes.
The thing that I thought I had, well.. that couldn't be more fucked up.
The reason I was so upset, it's a mixture of both things.
The reason, I havent been in a good mood lately.
This boy, he's slowly getting the best of me, & I sort of kinda need it to STOP.
Haha, NO ONE gets the best of Rachel Nichter, okay.. obviously he has.
Completely degrading me, & the thought of never speaking to him,
yeah, that never even came a little close to crossing my stupid little mind.
But, like I've said, he's the 1st person to make me feel ANYTHING after Chris,
& that's a big thing for me, obviously.
I've been through more guys than I can count this past year,
& he's been the ONLY one to mean ANYTHING to me,
& this has to go & happen to me. IT'S STUPID.
This is like, a big thing for me. Haha, as all of you know.
& I just want this to work, even if we dont become anything other than friends.
I'd be okay with it, I just want him in my life.. even after all the shit that's gone down between the two of us,
I can't help it. haha, there's something about him. I still haven't figured it out yet, but.. I love it.
I don't know, I guess we'll see where this goes.
I think I need to talk to my cousin, very badly.
I think he might be mad at me, I hope not.
I need him to HOPEFULLY make sense of this situation for me.
It's going to be the death of me, haha. SERIOUSLYY. :-\ .
haha, this just came from MEE!
the girl who claimed she didn't
want a boyfriend over summer,
& all she wanted to do was hook-up.
Hi, my name's Rachel,
& I let a boy get the best of me,
.. & you know what? I almost kind of like it.
Haha, I know.. I couldn't be MORE lame. =].