well, I'll just say it: I need you defenseless, dependent, & alone.
"She says live up to your first impression
Well my best side was your worst invention
Why can't you live without the attention"
Listen, I don't mean to push you away, I don't
like I said last night, you are the only person that I really have to depend on.
And I hate the fact that I do really need to depend on you.
But, right now .. just please, just be there. I dont want to explain. I can't explain it.
It's stupid, and i hate it more than anything in the world.
and it makes me sad, really fucking sad.
I just want you to know that you dont need to try and pry it out of me.
i'll talk when I feel i'm ready to talk.
If you care about me like you say you do, you'll be there when I'm ready.
It sounds dumb, I know it does.. i just dont feel like i can.
It just started back up agian, and it makes me upset, and i really dont want to do it over the internet.
I am literally ashamed to say what I want to.
stupid? not to me.