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to everyone who keeps fucken telling me to break up with Ian.
FUCK YOU ALL.
seriously... we aren't breaking up. deal with it, I don't care if you want me or you want him or seomthing, you can just keep on wanting, but keep your fucken mouth shut at the same time. Don't tell me that my relationship is shitty because you may think that but I fucken don't.
on another note, things have been alright I guess.
First semester is almost over. I need to get my schedule changed.
christmas was pretty good, I got a sweet IPODbutnotanIPOD thingy. it holds pictures and lots of music, then i got a bunch of certificates and clothes from family and bath stuff. Also I got new bindings and my season pass to wawa. Tif bought me a purse, and Camille got me a T-shirt. Thanks Girls. ♥ yeah that's pretty much it. I got Ian beaucoup de stuffies for x-mas... DDR pad (I owed him it though), march of the penguins, an as i lay dying shirt, and then some patches. it was wrapped pretty and everything too.
I spent New Years alone...like literately the only human in my damn house. it sucked.
New Years was also mine and Ian's 7 months. ♥
haven't been snowboarding a lot but I'm going with lindsay tomorrow. :D. I went up saturday but it was wicked lame because I had to help out my brother and I didn't stay long, I saw a few people up there though. Bobby was there and he was trying to pull himself into the family, it was funny.
Yesterday I went over Ian's house on the bus. It was a good time. I kicked his ass in some kung-fu game. what a pathetic nerd. we watched tv and cuddled had tickle fights and stuff too. I had fun... cept when he was a retard and hit his head really hard on mine.
today I hit my own head on my locker when i was opening it. it was pretty funny but I'll blame it on Ian because even though it was his fault for hitting my head with his yesterday, he blamed that on me.
I think we are doing pretty good lately... there are little kinks but they're there in any relationship. I still haven't got over the fear of making him upset so it's hard for me to talk to him lately because I don't want him to break up with me again or get unhappy or anything. I honestly don't think anything has ever hurt that bad and I don't want it to happen again... like I thought I had experienced heartbreak before but that's nothing compared to when he broke up with me last month, though it didn't last i felt like my heart was ripped out shattered and then burned... and yet it still hasn't completely healed.
some things i just don't know anymore.
my grandmother had a stroke.. she is living but not doing good at all... she tried to kill herself by drinking anti-freeze... my mom had to go down to florida a little before christmas to see her. she is doing a lot better then before but she passed in the ambulance when she was being brought in, and the doctors resesitated her because they didn't have any information on her. she's been in the hospital for a while now....
we got a new dog a while ago... his name is bandit and he is a small black and white pekenise mix. we saved him from a kill shelter. i went into the pound area and wanted to burst into tears, no lie.
my camera broke, no pictures in a while.
yeah I'm done... comment? atleast if anyone actually reads these things still.
FUCK YOU ALL.
seriously... we aren't breaking up. deal with it, I don't care if you want me or you want him or seomthing, you can just keep on wanting, but keep your fucken mouth shut at the same time. Don't tell me that my relationship is shitty because you may think that but I fucken don't.
on another note, things have been alright I guess.
First semester is almost over. I need to get my schedule changed.
christmas was pretty good, I got a sweet IPODbutnotanIPOD thingy. it holds pictures and lots of music, then i got a bunch of certificates and clothes from family and bath stuff. Also I got new bindings and my season pass to wawa. Tif bought me a purse, and Camille got me a T-shirt. Thanks Girls. ♥ yeah that's pretty much it. I got Ian beaucoup de stuffies for x-mas... DDR pad (I owed him it though), march of the penguins, an as i lay dying shirt, and then some patches. it was wrapped pretty and everything too.
I spent New Years alone...like literately the only human in my damn house. it sucked.
New Years was also mine and Ian's 7 months. ♥
haven't been snowboarding a lot but I'm going with lindsay tomorrow. :D. I went up saturday but it was wicked lame because I had to help out my brother and I didn't stay long, I saw a few people up there though. Bobby was there and he was trying to pull himself into the family, it was funny.
Yesterday I went over Ian's house on the bus. It was a good time. I kicked his ass in some kung-fu game. what a pathetic nerd. we watched tv and cuddled had tickle fights and stuff too. I had fun... cept when he was a retard and hit his head really hard on mine.
today I hit my own head on my locker when i was opening it. it was pretty funny but I'll blame it on Ian because even though it was his fault for hitting my head with his yesterday, he blamed that on me.
I think we are doing pretty good lately... there are little kinks but they're there in any relationship. I still haven't got over the fear of making him upset so it's hard for me to talk to him lately because I don't want him to break up with me again or get unhappy or anything. I honestly don't think anything has ever hurt that bad and I don't want it to happen again... like I thought I had experienced heartbreak before but that's nothing compared to when he broke up with me last month, though it didn't last i felt like my heart was ripped out shattered and then burned... and yet it still hasn't completely healed.
some things i just don't know anymore.
my grandmother had a stroke.. she is living but not doing good at all... she tried to kill herself by drinking anti-freeze... my mom had to go down to florida a little before christmas to see her. she is doing a lot better then before but she passed in the ambulance when she was being brought in, and the doctors resesitated her because they didn't have any information on her. she's been in the hospital for a while now....
we got a new dog a while ago... his name is bandit and he is a small black and white pekenise mix. we saved him from a kill shelter. i went into the pound area and wanted to burst into tears, no lie.
my camera broke, no pictures in a while.
yeah I'm done... comment? atleast if anyone actually reads these things still.