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I guess you could say that I'm pretty indecisive; about what I want to do with my life. True, it's a pretty big decision, and I'm positive that it's something that I should remedy. But, I must confess, I'm not looking at the bigger picture here. I'm just considering what options I have and how much motivation I have to pursue them.
I'm skeptical about where I am at this point. It's not like I'm depressed and don't see the point in life anymore. In some aspect, that is true. There are just times where I believe life to be worthless. Perhaps you think that I'm looking at like with from a pessimist's point of view, but it's not really like that. I actually percieve life to be something that I should use. I can attain knowledge or pleasure from a life, but I have to be able to do it in a such a way that it's beneficial to me as a person.
Do I really want to live by a systematic routine? What is it that I really want to do? I'm really not sure, and I don't even know if I can answer this question with honesty or clarity. I know that I am being particularly ambiguous with my words and possibly confusing. But, maybe, this is just for me. It's not for anyone else to understand. You don't have to try to analyze or comprehend my thoughts. I just feel like I have so many choices that are here-- right in front of me. I feel that I can, truly can, live the life that I want, and be ultimately satisfied or happy. But, in this society, it might not be as easy as one may think. It's true that there's always the factor of having to have a stable income to live one's desired life. Because, that's just what our society has become prone to do, it's practically manditory.
I'm not sure if I understand, or want to understand, why we live these lives. Why do you we conform to the corporate, hypocritical, democratic world? This isn't the kind of society that we should be living in. People revolve their lives around things that are just materials. They're just items that must be obtained for acceptance or perhaps they are just abused by that individual in other ways.
It's hard to recieve premonitions of the future.
I have failed to live up to your expectations, or using substances that disobey the regulations of the handbook. Sobriety. Yes. Yet, I still seem to be getting fucked.
I'm skeptical about where I am at this point. It's not like I'm depressed and don't see the point in life anymore. In some aspect, that is true. There are just times where I believe life to be worthless. Perhaps you think that I'm looking at like with from a pessimist's point of view, but it's not really like that. I actually percieve life to be something that I should use. I can attain knowledge or pleasure from a life, but I have to be able to do it in a such a way that it's beneficial to me as a person.
Do I really want to live by a systematic routine? What is it that I really want to do? I'm really not sure, and I don't even know if I can answer this question with honesty or clarity. I know that I am being particularly ambiguous with my words and possibly confusing. But, maybe, this is just for me. It's not for anyone else to understand. You don't have to try to analyze or comprehend my thoughts. I just feel like I have so many choices that are here-- right in front of me. I feel that I can, truly can, live the life that I want, and be ultimately satisfied or happy. But, in this society, it might not be as easy as one may think. It's true that there's always the factor of having to have a stable income to live one's desired life. Because, that's just what our society has become prone to do, it's practically manditory.
I'm not sure if I understand, or want to understand, why we live these lives. Why do you we conform to the corporate, hypocritical, democratic world? This isn't the kind of society that we should be living in. People revolve their lives around things that are just materials. They're just items that must be obtained for acceptance or perhaps they are just abused by that individual in other ways.
It's hard to recieve premonitions of the future.
I have failed to live up to your expectations, or using substances that disobey the regulations of the handbook. Sobriety. Yes. Yet, I still seem to be getting fucked.