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As you can see, I'm once again listening to "Such Great Heights" by the Postal Service, and that it is on my myspace, once again... although its been on for longer than just a day.
This song is the only song that is keeping me sane. Listening to the words&&the music just soothes me... and its the only thing that can soothe me to the point where i dont go crazy. When the music isn't playing, I have random outburts where I want to kick&&punch anything.. scream at everyone.. and run away from everything....
I always thought I lived a "not so normal life" but I never really looked at it as a bad thing. But every day that I am in New Jersey, I find out more and more.. and things get worse and worse...
-I have a mother who keeps playing games with my head.
-A lawyer who is pressuring me with college. NOW !
-A step grandfather who is about to die.
-A step dad with cancer in his stomach..
-Amazing friends who I miss so much.
-A boyfriend here who I don't want to be without.
-Old friends who have a MAJOR problem with me..
to the point where they've egged my boyfriends car twice..
because when I was 12, I was sneaky.... ?
- Crazy nightmares that do not allow me to wake up.
- && Random, painful, detailed, flash-backs....
that are literally haunting&&scaring me.
College starts in January.
I'll be in Virginia by December.
This song is the only song that is keeping me sane. Listening to the words&&the music just soothes me... and its the only thing that can soothe me to the point where i dont go crazy. When the music isn't playing, I have random outburts where I want to kick&&punch anything.. scream at everyone.. and run away from everything....
I always thought I lived a "not so normal life" but I never really looked at it as a bad thing. But every day that I am in New Jersey, I find out more and more.. and things get worse and worse...
-I have a mother who keeps playing games with my head.
-A lawyer who is pressuring me with college. NOW !
-A step grandfather who is about to die.
-A step dad with cancer in his stomach..
-Amazing friends who I miss so much.
-A boyfriend here who I don't want to be without.
-Old friends who have a MAJOR problem with me..
to the point where they've egged my boyfriends car twice..
because when I was 12, I was sneaky.... ?
- Crazy nightmares that do not allow me to wake up.
- && Random, painful, detailed, flash-backs....
that are literally haunting&&scaring me.
College starts in January.
I'll be in Virginia by December.