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So I realized sometime last week that I'm addicted to cocaine. Having determined such a thing, I decided I'd try my hand at quitting. Kick the habit, all on my own. I've marked these past four days, they've been long and hard. They've kicked my ass. Physically, I've been sick, mentally I've been adrift, bereft, distraught, and disconnected. I need

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I LOVE YOU. COME HOME TO ME! im just gonna fill you in here cause i dont know when we can talk or whutever. my momma bought our own house.. we're still at ritas right now but we just just just bought it on wednesday! tom died. yes, logans father. that was on january 2nd. it was a bad car accident, his car literally split in two. police said he was most definitely speeding, and in my opinion he was either wasted, rollin, or both. probably both. but we pretty much know he was wasted cause we went to his house a few days later and there was good enough evidence to say that he most likely was. my mom and ritas tom got rid of all the pot and the coke so that rita didnt have to see it. but she'll find out eventually, you know once we get the autopsy results, which was not optional we had to have one done (thank gawd!!!).. she needs to learn the truth firsthand sooner or later. my mom was a wreck, shes in charge of almost everything cause he didnt have a will and everything is going to logan but because hes a minor she has to take care of it all. i was fine at first, but then we went to fuckin hallmark to get cards to put in his casket and i broke down and the store and realized i was fuckin mad at him. i guess i cried because there wasnt an "i hate you" card, or a "im so fuckin mad at you, youre an asshole" card, i should start my own greeting card line, it could be called brittanys bullshit greeting cards or something stupid like that. but yah everyone seems ok now. logan still talks about how his fathers dead. i found out that stefanies knows people you know!! deshay and debra!!! i dont know stefanie is friends with jackson, i dont know the relation between debra and deshay with jackson but yah, i dont know.. oh me and laura smoked some weed with lauren, never fucking again man!!!!! neverrrr!!! lol she acted like beyond dumb lol it was kinda annoying, but yah i dont know.

im sorry i made this all about me, but i dont know whut to tell you. i really hope you get better. when i was quitting meth it was fuckin hard, and i didnt even think i was using it too much, or too hard or anything!!! but i did it by myself, and if i did it you can too, please get better i love you! call me if you need absolutely ANYTHINGGG!!! cause you know id do anything for you. k i love you lauren!!!

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oh my god, i cant even say anything else. everything is just so fucked up and i dont even wanna deal with it.