strange how time flies.
So. I'm going to college in Eau Claire. I'm happy about it, I really think it's the place for me. It just...felt right.
My major; Geology and Natural and Space Sciences. Okay, they made that major for me. For real.
Although, I only got into 2 of the 4 schools I applied to. 1 is still pending, but it's not likely I'm going to get in. I was accepted to EC and Milwaukee. Not La Crosse. Madison is pending but unlikely. I'm disappointed I guess, I never regretted slacking a little until I got my rejection letter from LAX. Hmm. I didn't even like it there, I just didn't see it coming.
I'm very much caught up in things lately. I have been spreading myself too thin but I can't take the time to do things to prevent that. I'm either doing everything at once or nothing at all. I find myself thinking about people a lot. I have had vivid dreams with two different people in them in the last like 4 days. One of them was Ryan, which was just...strange and familiar and very much like deja vu. I never wrote in here when we were dating. Probably a good thing in hindsight, idk how much detail I would like to have about some of those situations. In some ways, I wish that chapter of my life would just go ahead and close already. But at the same time, I can't help but think that there is a reason that it's still somewhat open. Something about it left unsaid, something waiting to happen. Who knows. He is the reason I think going to Milwaukee would not be a good idea for me. It's been hard enough him being there and me being here and seeing him sometimes. It would either be way harder or way easier to live within a few blocks of him. I don't think I would branch out if I went there either. I don't want the same old same old, I can't wait to find something new, or at least a little fresher than what I've got going here. It's a strange feeling knowing that this time next year I will be living in Eau Claire and "going home" for the holidays could mean to my father's house. I like that. He is only an hour and a half away when I'm there, that's the closest I'll have lived to him in 10 years. That makes me really happy just thinking about it. I'll also have Brian. I think of all my friends he is one this I can really look forward to living close to. Not that I think I'll see him constantly; but if I could pick any familiar face in a new situation like that, well Brian would be right at the top of my list. Aaron is close to at Stout, another person I'm looking forward to being closer to since I miss him quite a bit now. Maybe I'll make some girl friends when I leave. Doubtful, but hey, anything can happen.
Tomorrow I have DI. Then I'm going to shop for an ugly Christmas sweater with Haley. Awesome. This week is winter wish week, which reminds me of how Ryan paid for his shirt last year in pennies. I miss him too. But in a weird way. Mmmmm. Which makes me wish that I didn't have a soul a little bit. Haha. But for real.
Until next time.
My major; Geology and Natural and Space Sciences. Okay, they made that major for me. For real.
Although, I only got into 2 of the 4 schools I applied to. 1 is still pending, but it's not likely I'm going to get in. I was accepted to EC and Milwaukee. Not La Crosse. Madison is pending but unlikely. I'm disappointed I guess, I never regretted slacking a little until I got my rejection letter from LAX. Hmm. I didn't even like it there, I just didn't see it coming.
I'm very much caught up in things lately. I have been spreading myself too thin but I can't take the time to do things to prevent that. I'm either doing everything at once or nothing at all. I find myself thinking about people a lot. I have had vivid dreams with two different people in them in the last like 4 days. One of them was Ryan, which was just...strange and familiar and very much like deja vu. I never wrote in here when we were dating. Probably a good thing in hindsight, idk how much detail I would like to have about some of those situations. In some ways, I wish that chapter of my life would just go ahead and close already. But at the same time, I can't help but think that there is a reason that it's still somewhat open. Something about it left unsaid, something waiting to happen. Who knows. He is the reason I think going to Milwaukee would not be a good idea for me. It's been hard enough him being there and me being here and seeing him sometimes. It would either be way harder or way easier to live within a few blocks of him. I don't think I would branch out if I went there either. I don't want the same old same old, I can't wait to find something new, or at least a little fresher than what I've got going here. It's a strange feeling knowing that this time next year I will be living in Eau Claire and "going home" for the holidays could mean to my father's house. I like that. He is only an hour and a half away when I'm there, that's the closest I'll have lived to him in 10 years. That makes me really happy just thinking about it. I'll also have Brian. I think of all my friends he is one this I can really look forward to living close to. Not that I think I'll see him constantly; but if I could pick any familiar face in a new situation like that, well Brian would be right at the top of my list. Aaron is close to at Stout, another person I'm looking forward to being closer to since I miss him quite a bit now. Maybe I'll make some girl friends when I leave. Doubtful, but hey, anything can happen.
Tomorrow I have DI. Then I'm going to shop for an ugly Christmas sweater with Haley. Awesome. This week is winter wish week, which reminds me of how Ryan paid for his shirt last year in pennies. I miss him too. But in a weird way. Mmmmm. Which makes me wish that I didn't have a soul a little bit. Haha. But for real.
Until next time.