quick.
ted and i got in a fight.
it was bad.
i feel really terrible.
but okay at the same time.
i realized some things.
nothings ever perfect.
we talked about breaking up.
and doing that made me realize that no matter how fucked up everything is in my life at that time, that being with him is the one thing that i can be sure about being right.
i'm not ready for things to be over between us.
i still have driving and fancy resurants and turnabout and movies and walks and smoothies to make and anniversaries to share and time to enjoy with him.
i'm not done.
and i'm happy about that.
also; i took 3 real scientific tests online...they all told me i was mildly bipolar.
for the first time in my life i want to see a counselor.
i want someone to tell me why i feel this way.
and how i can make it better.
i want validation that i'm not alone in these feelings.
it was bad.
i feel really terrible.
but okay at the same time.
i realized some things.
nothings ever perfect.
we talked about breaking up.
and doing that made me realize that no matter how fucked up everything is in my life at that time, that being with him is the one thing that i can be sure about being right.
i'm not ready for things to be over between us.
i still have driving and fancy resurants and turnabout and movies and walks and smoothies to make and anniversaries to share and time to enjoy with him.
i'm not done.
and i'm happy about that.
also; i took 3 real scientific tests online...they all told me i was mildly bipolar.
for the first time in my life i want to see a counselor.
i want someone to tell me why i feel this way.
and how i can make it better.
i want validation that i'm not alone in these feelings.