for what it's worth, i won't give up
okay so i'm updating again today. whatever.
i HAD to talk to Dizzle today because there's something i need to get off my chest. so, when she called i told my whole entire story just to find out my phone and hers were NOT connected anymore, which means i basically told myself. even though no one else saw, i was embarassed out of my mind.
well, i never mentioned my night last night. but, i basically spent the day and evening with Courtney over in Val Vista Lakes. We were visiting our favorite boys in the whole world. <3. Yeah, Courtney and I were chillin' with Robert, Thorn, David, Dany, Sean and Blake. That was the first time i guess i kinda met Sean and he seems preeeeee c00l. um, i've seen Dany around more than a few times and i've seen her with david when Robert was hanging out with him too but, i've never officially met her. she seems pretty neat, though. & might i add that Courtney and Thorn are beautiful together. They were kissing and hugging and ohh, gosh. it's just too cute.
Robert love & i just have too much fun together. okay, i lied. we could never have TOO much. =). i adore him so much. and lately i've been kinda blah towards him and i just put shame upon myself 'cause he doesn't do anything to deserve it. i want to see him today really bad. but he's busy so it's not going to happen.
blah, okay i went of subject but to sum my night off, it was marvelous and beautiful. and i think Courtney can agree.
I feel pretty good about myself though 'cause Robert lost our bet. Now he owes me. muahaha. Paradise Bakery heeeeeeeeere comes Robert's money to buy me a Paradise Club. <33333 what a fatty i am.
& last night i got the worst thought in my head. jealousy overcame the better half of me and i thought about this one thing so much it made me sick and sad. Robert finally forced it out of me, since i guess it had to do with him, and it was just miserable for me to have to tell him. 'cause really, it wasn't even a big deal. at all. but, i guess it's easy to understand how i felt if you're a girl. but, i'll never tell a soul except donna. which is whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i need to talk to her. HEH, see what jealousy does. go to hell jealousy.
today i attempted to do my hair all spiffy like. it just isn't working. i cut my bangs. but i'm not sure yet if i like them. i was too lazy to style them, so we'll see eventually. oh, and speaking of bangs.. i talked to Elissa today. =))))). she showed me how she cut her bangs, and her hair inspires me. haha. she's a neat person.
Christmas is in like.. what. 4,5 days. and guess what. i'm the worst person alive 'cause i havent bought any presents. well, i think i only need to worry about my dad. my mom is going out of town so i can hold off on her present & then i just have other random people that i want to get gifts for, so i think i can do it. i can make it. wish me luck.
the break has been good so far, other than today. i hate sitting on the damn computer. i need friends. donnaluu is out of town, robert has people that want to hang out with him too so i can't hang out with him everday, courtney is going out of town andddddddddddd tara is busyyyy alot.
laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame.
EDIT
i want to thank Tommy for keeping me company on our crappy monday! he WAS going to go see a movie with my poor pathetic azzzz but, he promised his mom he'd stay home. oh well, hopefully another time. =))))
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i HAD to talk to Dizzle today because there's something i need to get off my chest. so, when she called i told my whole entire story just to find out my phone and hers were NOT connected anymore, which means i basically told myself. even though no one else saw, i was embarassed out of my mind.
well, i never mentioned my night last night. but, i basically spent the day and evening with Courtney over in Val Vista Lakes. We were visiting our favorite boys in the whole world. <3. Yeah, Courtney and I were chillin' with Robert, Thorn, David, Dany, Sean and Blake. That was the first time i guess i kinda met Sean and he seems preeeeee c00l. um, i've seen Dany around more than a few times and i've seen her with david when Robert was hanging out with him too but, i've never officially met her. she seems pretty neat, though. & might i add that Courtney and Thorn are beautiful together. They were kissing and hugging and ohh, gosh. it's just too cute.
Robert love & i just have too much fun together. okay, i lied. we could never have TOO much. =). i adore him so much. and lately i've been kinda blah towards him and i just put shame upon myself 'cause he doesn't do anything to deserve it. i want to see him today really bad. but he's busy so it's not going to happen.
blah, okay i went of subject but to sum my night off, it was marvelous and beautiful. and i think Courtney can agree.
I feel pretty good about myself though 'cause Robert lost our bet. Now he owes me. muahaha. Paradise Bakery heeeeeeeeere comes Robert's money to buy me a Paradise Club. <33333 what a fatty i am.
& last night i got the worst thought in my head. jealousy overcame the better half of me and i thought about this one thing so much it made me sick and sad. Robert finally forced it out of me, since i guess it had to do with him, and it was just miserable for me to have to tell him. 'cause really, it wasn't even a big deal. at all. but, i guess it's easy to understand how i felt if you're a girl. but, i'll never tell a soul except donna. which is whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i need to talk to her. HEH, see what jealousy does. go to hell jealousy.
today i attempted to do my hair all spiffy like. it just isn't working. i cut my bangs. but i'm not sure yet if i like them. i was too lazy to style them, so we'll see eventually. oh, and speaking of bangs.. i talked to Elissa today. =))))). she showed me how she cut her bangs, and her hair inspires me. haha. she's a neat person.
Christmas is in like.. what. 4,5 days. and guess what. i'm the worst person alive 'cause i havent bought any presents. well, i think i only need to worry about my dad. my mom is going out of town so i can hold off on her present & then i just have other random people that i want to get gifts for, so i think i can do it. i can make it. wish me luck.
the break has been good so far, other than today. i hate sitting on the damn computer. i need friends. donnaluu is out of town, robert has people that want to hang out with him too so i can't hang out with him everday, courtney is going out of town andddddddddddd tara is busyyyy alot.
laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame.
EDIT
i want to thank Tommy for keeping me company on our crappy monday! he WAS going to go see a movie with my poor pathetic azzzz but, he promised his mom he'd stay home. oh well, hopefully another time. =))))
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