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gages butt rolled over today... and i didnt see it! i layed him on his stomach came back and he was on his back.. i was so mad and he wouldnt do it again... it sucked! grrr... im going to catch him before its all said and done... i cant believe he rolled over.. my baby is getting so big... he is 3 months old.. teething.. eats solid food,, trys to crawl,, rolled over... been scooting since he was itty bitty... i remember when i broughthim home from the hospital he was so small... now hes so heavy carrying his carrier and him sucks.. im about to move him up to a regular car seat.. i dont like this shit one bit.. i want my little baby back... i love watching him grow and learn new things.. and seeing the twinkle in his eye when he sees me bc he knows im his mama.. and the way he follows roland around the room waiting for him to come pick him up... how much love i can feel coming from him and how i see him grow and develop with each passing day... but i stillknow that in just a few days he is going to be running around.. and holding a sippy cup.. and using the potty.. he wont need me anymore... and i dont like that idea... getting up every morning looking at his little face starring back at me knowing he needs me makes me feel like i finally have a reason to get out of bed. im not only cooking and cleaning and taking care of roland but a little life i brought into this world.. that noone else in this world could have created... bc every little bit of his dna had something to do with me. i had my hands all in that... i worry that i will teach him something bad and it will come back to bite me in the butt when hes older... i just hope i can be the best mom possible.. and that he doesnt grow to hate me. ahh.... my baby rolled over!!!!