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I need to write in this thing more often. I always go to write in it, and then get distracted and never do.
I've caught myself in moments lately, where I wonder what would happen if I, for example, took the rest of the bottle of pills, instead of just the one. Or, driving, what would happen if I drove through over the guard rail, and into the canyon, instead of following the contours of the paved road.
I wouldn't actually do it, mind you. I'm just curious how it would feel if it happened.
I think the lackadaisical mindset of summer is getting to me.
I hate sitting at home. I actually could be at OB right now with Gabbi and others, hanging out and bonfiring. But it's my sister's birthday. And my mom has this kind of rule that, if it's a family member's birthday, we ALL have to stick around for the entire day.
I don't mind hanging out with my sister-but all we're doing is sitting around the house, watching reruns of Boy Meets World.
The same thing happened yesterday; Ciera called to see if I wanted to hang out-but I couldn't, because it was my mom's birthday.
I know I wouldn't mind if we were doing nothing on my birthday and my sister or brother or whoever wanted to go out and do something for awhile.
But these are just wasted thoughts, as it's not going to happen and I'm going to sit around the house for the rest of eternity.
On a lighter note, HAWAII IN 3 DAYS!
Yessssssssssssssss. Out of my house, and beach and vacation and beautiful scenery and ..family? Woohoo.
Ah well, I'll take the good with the bad on this one.
I've caught myself in moments lately, where I wonder what would happen if I, for example, took the rest of the bottle of pills, instead of just the one. Or, driving, what would happen if I drove through over the guard rail, and into the canyon, instead of following the contours of the paved road.
I wouldn't actually do it, mind you. I'm just curious how it would feel if it happened.
I think the lackadaisical mindset of summer is getting to me.
I hate sitting at home. I actually could be at OB right now with Gabbi and others, hanging out and bonfiring. But it's my sister's birthday. And my mom has this kind of rule that, if it's a family member's birthday, we ALL have to stick around for the entire day.
I don't mind hanging out with my sister-but all we're doing is sitting around the house, watching reruns of Boy Meets World.
The same thing happened yesterday; Ciera called to see if I wanted to hang out-but I couldn't, because it was my mom's birthday.
I know I wouldn't mind if we were doing nothing on my birthday and my sister or brother or whoever wanted to go out and do something for awhile.
But these are just wasted thoughts, as it's not going to happen and I'm going to sit around the house for the rest of eternity.
On a lighter note, HAWAII IN 3 DAYS!
Yessssssssssssssss. Out of my house, and beach and vacation and beautiful scenery and ..family? Woohoo.
Ah well, I'll take the good with the bad on this one.