SUMMER
Sooo i have a job now. I get $17 an hour for picking this guys daughters up and driving them wherever they need to go. It's awesome. I have terrible anxiety right now and i feel dizzy and spaced out all the time. To make matters worse, i get hypochondriacal and think that my anxiety is some awful disease, which intensifies it. Ugh, a terrible cycle. And i'm thinking about getting off birth control cause i think that i making everything worse. Going to the doctor on the 17th, i HOPE nothing is wrong with me :/ Anywaaayyy, my english class is almost over. 6 more days! whew, i am SOO glad it;s almost done, it has been stressing me out a lot. I need to start going to the gym more and go swimming. I wanna go on a ride to the beach with baby soon. That would be fun, and i feel like he is the only thing i can count on these days... KNOCK ON WOOD. Hopefully a new car for my birthday and/or a computer. I hope it cools down soon so that i can go hiking again. The valley has been picking up lately, i've been to a few parties, which is out of the ordinary haha. It has been chill, i like just hanging out with good friends and getting fucked up. On that note, i am not really smoking pot anymore. I'm seeing if that plays into the anxiety factor and so i'm eliminating it for the time being. Hm, weird dreams and stupid bitches. Uhh that's about it for now i think. I'm gonna make homemade stir fry for me and Andy today suckerss. <3