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Wow. I am really a fucked up person. I cant believe what i did, and i dont even know why i did it. It screwed up everything and made people hate me, and know he hates me and hes wayy over me. Maybe everyone is right? He never did love me. There is no way he couldve with how fast he moved on. Well thats what everyone is telling me, even some of his best friends. Maybe i really am a whore? Maybe i really am like shit? I just wish that i could go back in time. So that i wouldnt of treated him like shit, like he says i did. Or even have that party. Or go to shauns party. I just miss him, i never had anyone like him. He treated me like the best. Every other boyfriend i had either played me or cheated on me, and i have a feeling its going to stay the same in the future too, hes the only one right boy that i picked, and then i fucked it up. I wasnt used to having a boyfriend who actually cared. And i just wish i could show him how much i really do care. How much i really do love him. All i wish is that he would give me another chance and see how sorry i am. But i know thats not going to happen because he has a girlfriend alrighty and doesnt care about me at all. Im sick of crying EVERYDAY. I cant even look at him. And he doesnt even want to talk to me. If your reading this Gage, know that i love you mroe than anything and that is never going to change.
I need somones help.
What should i doo ?