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trying to listen to belle and sebastian to brighten up my day.
the shift i picked up last night proved to be sucessful. i hope today goes about the same.
i am going to look at a house in two hours. i think it is the one for many many reasons. maybe later i will digress.
my anxiety is killing me. my chest hurts pretty much all hours of the day aside from when i sleep, and even then, some nights i wake up multiple times feeling fear and panick and i can't catch my breath. i don't know why. some nights i have dreams that i feel guilty about, but i feel safe. (last night i made a snowman) sometimes when i wake up, and realize i am awake, i feel sad, and just want to sleep again, and dream. i don't remember the last time i left my house, aside from work and alexander's doctors visits.
do something pretty while you can, don't fall asleep.
the shift i picked up last night proved to be sucessful. i hope today goes about the same.
i am going to look at a house in two hours. i think it is the one for many many reasons. maybe later i will digress.
my anxiety is killing me. my chest hurts pretty much all hours of the day aside from when i sleep, and even then, some nights i wake up multiple times feeling fear and panick and i can't catch my breath. i don't know why. some nights i have dreams that i feel guilty about, but i feel safe. (last night i made a snowman) sometimes when i wake up, and realize i am awake, i feel sad, and just want to sleep again, and dream. i don't remember the last time i left my house, aside from work and alexander's doctors visits.
do something pretty while you can, don't fall asleep.