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i realize that i hold you accountable for the inadequacies or my feelings.. always. i'm such a horrid girl, and i keep pushing and pushing and pushing. but i don't want you to go anywhere. i'm frightened of you leaving. i don't want to hurt. and it's easy if we fight, and it's easy if i create these indiscretions in my head, so that i can run away and not blame myself. it happens over and over. but i want to fix it.
i want to go home.
i want to go home.