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This is sort of just a going to be a big blob of sad words.
never break the heart that loves you.
tell my heart to stop beating
tell my mind to stop thinking
throw a stone into the ocean
and tell it to stop sinking
tell the sky to not be as blue
it's just like telling me not to be
so in love with you
the hardest thing you'll ever learn, is how to say goodbye.
and i try but i'm not convincing
your lips, they pout and twist
and i die trying just to
keep myself from kissing you
you take in everything
with a certainty i envy
it's somehow all i need
just keep me guessing please
darling, all of these awkward,
jump-start, stalling conversations
mean much more to me than anything
it comes down to me and you
and whether we're
supposed to or not, we still will
we're so much better off than them
Don’t you ever get sick of our territories
Don’t you ever feel like glass?
F r a g i l e, hurting, letting it pass
Don’t you think it’s time to trespass
But when the fire is gone
Who are you?
What are you so scared of?
I’m just as scared as you...
I was nervous from the start
That our muscles might tear us apart
From the words that carve our lives
To the words that take us by surprise
From the sounds that disappear
To the changes we begin to fear
One day I'll fail to breathe and
All you'll have are memories
I won't talk, I won't breathe
I won't move until you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak, It's true
'Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
'Cause my heart keeps f a l l i n g faster
I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck that's taken it's place
So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
'Cause we all get tired, I mean, eventually
There is nothing left to do but s l e e p ...
It's just my luck to end up getting stuck, to everything you are
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me just to forget your sweater so far
I can honestly say that I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body that cause my comatose to begin
I will sleep another day- I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment, As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up...
so if you hear this &
you think you're ready,
meet me in montauk where
we'll write out in the sand..
"here lies the destiny,
of two hurt souls afraid to be cured again."
that could be our epitaph..
True love is, by it’s nature, unconditional.
It is neither exhaustible nor transitional.
It won’t mistreat you like the storm does the feather,
It won’t come and go like the seasons or the weather.
Once it’s touched your heart, it will live there evermore.
Both a blessing and a curse that leaves you wanting more.
It won’t happen in a day, true love needs time to grow.
Should it ever fill your cup, that cup will overflow.
It doesn’t disappear when troubled times come to call.
If it dies in your heart, it was never there at all.
Yes, it's true- You've brainwashed me and now I'm more confused
I still somehow hope I end up with you
Yes, it's true- I romanticize every single thing I do
Especially when it comes to you
I've sunken in the quicksands of love
And I don't want you to rescue me
Screw what my supposed friends think
It's obvious they reek of jealousy
I hope to God I mean a little more
than the sounds that escape your tired 4 A.M. lips
And oh-how I wish I meant a little more
than a symphony of heavy breathing
and the friction of hips
And I'm not ready for this sort of thing
But I'm not gonna break
And I'm not going to worry about it anymore
I'm not gonna bend
And I'm not gonna break and
I'm not gonna worry about it anymore
I know you'll be better off
without me, when im gone
You know you're, you're beautiful
You're beautiful
Shine on -You were made to
Shine on -And you know I love you
And even if we can or cant be friends
I'll be with you until the very end
So shine on, you want me to
It's keeping me awake every night
But I can never seem to give up on you
If I am- another waste
of everything you've dreamed of
I will let you down
If I am- Only here to watch you as you suffer,
I will let you down
The answers we find
are never what we had in mind,
So we make it up as we go along
You don't talk of dreams,
I won't mention tomorrow
We won't make those promises that we can't keep
I will never leave you
I will not let you down
I've been looking in the mirror for so long
That I've come to believe
my soul's on the other side
All the little pieces fallen, s h a t t e r
Shards of me, too sharp to put back together
Too small to matter
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces
If I try to touch her and I bleed, I bleed
& I breathe, I breathe no more. Lie to me,
convince me that I've been sick forever
And all of this will make sense when I get better
I know the difference between myself and my reflection
I just can't help but to wonder... Which of us do you love?
All of the things that I want to say- Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
'Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why-
I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything he does is beautiful
everything he does is right
And I need to leave, for a while.
Life is so meaningless, there is nothing worth a smile.
So goodbye, I'll miss you.
And I'm sorry, but this is my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.
It's been the years, of abuse.
Neglected to treat the disorder,
That controls my youth, for so long.
I'm in a fleshy tomb, buried up above the ground.
It's no use, why should I hold on?
It's been five years, don't need one more.
So goodbye, life's abuse.
'Cause I'm wrong, and I don't see a chance to fix this head
So just give up, Write me off, pretend I don't exist
The ground's opening up, I'm falling down below
An endless fall into a place that I don't think a child should know
I'm screaming out a name that could never pass my lips
The poison in my veins that got me through his kiss
Now I'm too hung up on that to have anything with you
It's the poison in my veins,
The poison in my veins
The poison in my veins that got me through.
Hope is like a sailing ship, dependent on the wind
To carry her to safety like an old familiar friend.
When the sea begins to rage, and the sky threatens to fall
Resolute, she will forge on, though death should come to call.
But she will not give up; her resolve will never bend.
If the sea should try to claim her, she will fight until the end.
She has been here many times, faced death's relentless wrath.
But still she carries on; she never waivers on her path.
She cannot ask for mercy, too great would be the cost.
Should Hope ever admit defeat,
Her purpose would be lost.
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down, and I can't do this alone
Stay with me- This is what I need, Please
Sing us a song,
And we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own
But what would it be without you?
I am nothing now, And it's been so long,
Since I've heard a sound,
The sound of my only hope.
This time I will be listening.
I am likely to miss the main event
If I stop to cry and complain again
so I will keep a deliberate pace
let the damn breeze dry my face
I know there's words that we will never speak
and the questions can't be answered easily
but I wanted to be easy so
nod your head if the plans have to change
shake it, love, they stayed the same
smile at me and I will stay
start to cry and I'll go away
just please don't leave me guessing
I know you've been sworn,
I read your complaint
you're needing someone older
and though I've been warned
to live d a y b y d a y
there's something taking over
Did you expect to kiss me one time
while looking at me with the same eyes ever again?
so come on and face it
it's time that we say it
you can cross the line
whenever you want to
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But thats how its got to be
Its coming down to nothing more than apathy
Id rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and whos still standing when it clears
Shes on your mind
And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
Im losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves
I should have known this
right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life but
Love can b r e a k y o u r h e a r t
Complete and total adoration, My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it, In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were- What happened? You were a priority, Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough. So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it. But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake, I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
I'm breathing in your skin tonight
Quiet is my loudest cry
Wouldn't wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside
And if it's healthier to leave you be
May a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me
It hurts so much to see you with her, I can't begin, and now I long
Just for a kiss, It's you I miss. Why can't you try to see that...
I am you, and you are me. But you've moved on
and now I'm gone, goodbye... Someday I will too-
I don't need you and I... cause this is life,
You raped my mind and tore my heart
I hope you're proud I'm now unblind,
a fresh new start. what to do now
Make the pain go away, go away for me
Make the pain go away, go away for me
Its dark in here, Visions are flashing into my head
As I reminisce. My reoccuring dreams and you said
I'm falling, falling for you babe- And my feelings are getting stronger
So why dont you stay with me for a, For a little longer
Come here boy, Oh Come here boy
I know that my face Is only too familiar to your sleep
I can see it in your eyes, I can tell by your body heat
Why are you taking so long? You need to come and find me honey
To set your mind at rest, And let your dreams run free
I've resolved upon this course, which has no need of you
Denying this day didn't stop it from coming
Promise me, that you won't be
Consumed when you realize
We're screaming at the same moon
Shredded by state lines
Press my face up against the glass,
With both eyelids shut and
baby, this won't get any easier
baby, this won't get any easier
baby, this won't get any easier
Don't let this die, we may never fall in love again
It's hard but worth the wait when it's over
We may never fall in love again..
Its hard but worth the wait when it's over
now that its june, we'll sleep out in the garden
and if it rains, we'll just sink in to the mud
where it is quiet and much cooler than the house is
and there is no clocks or phones to wake us up
because i have learned that nothing is as pressing
as the one who is pressing would like you to believe
and i am content to walk a little slower
because there is nowhere that i really need to be
i find that life is easier when it is just a blur
with no details to confuse who or what or where i was
so when the ending comes the full regret will seem obscure
but these are days we dream about
when the sunlight paints us gold
and this apartment could not be prettier
as when we danced up there alone
this tv is old, the color is fucked, do you see the
difference in the shades?
but the green is still close to green, my love
and i believe we are the same
Maybe, if my heart stops beating
it wont hurt this much
And never will I have to
answer again to anyone
Please don't get me wrong
Because I'll never let this go
but I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
but now i feel like I don't know you...
Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell you I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you
Could this be out of line?
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
Oh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you
Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?
She'd do anything to sparkle in his eyes
She would suffer, she would fight and compromise
She's been wishin up the stars that shine so bright
For answers to questions that will haunt her tonight
How she'd be soothed, how she'd be saved, if he could see
She needs to be held in his arms to be freed
But everything happens for reasons that she will never understand
Till she knows that the heart of a woman will never
Be found in the arms of a man
And as she runs away she fears she won't be followed
What could be worse than leaving something behind
And as the depth of oceans slowly become shallow
It's loneliness she finds- If only he was mine
So this is how it goes
Well, I would have never known
And if it ends today
Well I'll still say that you shine brighter
Than anyone
Now I think we're taking this too far
Don't you know that it's not this hard
Well its not this hard
But if you take whats yours then I'll take mine
Must we go there
Please not this time, no not this time
Well this is not your fault
But if I'm without you
Then I will feel so small
And if you have to go
Always know that you shine brighter
Than anyone does
There was a time when all was perfect
no worries, but now that's blurry
We had something that no one had
but it's all gone now, ain't that so sad
She came along, took you away,
She opened her arms wide, there you stayed
You smiled, and waved goodbye,
and for the last time, I looked in your eyes
Love can fade, can break away,
can be forgotten, but not replaced
You might lose hope, you might lose faith
but don't throw it all away, cause you're afraid
Now all I ask, is for her to care
for her to treat you like I were always there
But please don't love her, come back to me
I'm begging you, I'm on my knees
Please don't forget, all the times we spent
and all the places, we saw and went
You were so happy, what did I do wrong
was I not good enough, all along?
Time takes its toll on us
This changes everything
I'd be a liar if i denied you at all
Oh, now that I know
This changes everything
And the amplifier screams
Out loud for the last time
Wave your hands at the audience
As you sink on in, First chance to hide
you need desperately so, find me so
Motion gives up on you in the end
I’ll try my best to be home by then
You'll see the grace we had
you'll never have
Walked past my grave in the dark tonight
Saw the stone and the note you left for me
To answer your question,
I just had to leave, I just had to leave
But that's not why I'm here
I came out here to tell you
It rains in heaven all day long
I wanna find you so bad and let you know
I'm miserable up here without you
Miserable up here with out you
Found my way back in the dark tonight.
Couldn't wake up not right next to you
I'd trade in forever to just hear you say
The sound of my name
Don't believe that it's better
When you leave everything behind
Don't believe that the weather
Is perfect the day that you die
Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion
Of self conclusion in one simplified motion
You see the trick is that you're never supposed act on it
No matter how unbearable this misery gets
You make it sound so easy to be alive
But tell me how am I supposed seize this day
When everything inside me has died?
I would be lying if I said that things would never get rough
And all this cliche motivation, it could never be enough
I could stand here all night trying to convince you
But what good would that do?
My offer stands, and you must choose
You took my hand, You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
I took your words- And I believed
In everything... You said to me
I wish I could touch you again, I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how- I was all wrong
They knew better, Still you said forever
And ever- Who knew?
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened..?
That last kiss, I'll cherish-
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember, But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep, My darling... Who knew?
they held on to each other
with all the strength they had
and they loved with devotion
beyond what i understand
but i guess fear has a way
of making sleep unbearable
and the days seem dark and long
but we cry and we dance
and we stumble into love
with perfect, awkward grace
But now we speak with ruined tongues
And the words we say aren't meant for anyone
It's just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance
But there was once you
You said you hate my suffering
And you understood
And you'd take care of me
You'd always be there
Well where are you now?
i'm sorry about the phone call and needing you
some decisions you don't make
i guess it's like breathing and not wanting to
there are some things that you can't fake
i guess that it is typical
to cling to memories you'll never get back again
and to sort through old photographs
of a summer long ago
or a friend that you used to know
and there, below his frozen face
you wrote the name and that ancient date
and you can't believe he is really gone...
in a coma you don't dream
you just hope that someone sits with you
yeah yeah... sadness compiled into one, basically all of my away messages.