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[____malice]

Sometimes i wish i could just forget about everything in champaign and go back to ohio. I know that i shouldnt base my life on a life that i used to have, but i get so fucking tired of this place fast. and guess what im not sorry for being an arrogant cunt. i am fucking sick of just trying to get along with people just so i wont be lonely. i lost myself completely in the process of doing so and i just vaguely remember the person i used to be. i used to fucking have opinions and i used to think for myself. now i feel like im becoming a typical dumb predictable fuck. id rather think for myself and have barely anyone then go along with other peoples ideas and style. i dont understand a lot of shit and i dont have that much exposure to things that id like to. jesus fucking christ this town will suck the life out of you
i dont know what tha hell im talking about d00ds