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for you.
The other problem i have is that this time, things are so different that i dont quite know how to handle them sometimes. i didnt even fucking know that my heart, or therefore the amount of emotion that i seem to keep hidden well, had so much fucking capacity. i barely even knew i had a heart. what the fuck were feelings, you know. i never shared them
theres a lot of things i should apologize for. we're getting into something big, you know...its been much longer then i ever imagined anything turning out to be, but i'm so happy. and yeah im fucked up, but im honestly changed. i dont feel as strongly about that damage bullshit. mellowww, right? im not as tuff; soft as baby. maybe im just tired right now. its 3 am and i know i promised to get some sleep. but i really want to let you know this.
i dont want to sound fucking sappy or pathetic. but in all the ways that im different, from my cincy/fuck up riot days or whatever, i do believe that im better off. sometimes i miss it like crazy and i get homesick. but not even driving through the city, going through dumpsters and the smell of paint fumes couldnt bring me home as well as you do. it feels so alright, and i dont want anything else in the world for the rest of my life. even though i still make messes of everything, and im not very level headed, i'm loving someone more then i ever thought i could. and its such a strong and fucking intense feeling, that sometimes when you get me all choked up, its just because its unconditional love that i have for you. it has nothing to do with drinking too much, or being intoxicated. i think its beyond that. you'd better think about it, puppy
love hillary
The other problem i have is that this time, things are so different that i dont quite know how to handle them sometimes. i didnt even fucking know that my heart, or therefore the amount of emotion that i seem to keep hidden well, had so much fucking capacity. i barely even knew i had a heart. what the fuck were feelings, you know. i never shared them
theres a lot of things i should apologize for. we're getting into something big, you know...its been much longer then i ever imagined anything turning out to be, but i'm so happy. and yeah im fucked up, but im honestly changed. i dont feel as strongly about that damage bullshit. mellowww, right? im not as tuff; soft as baby. maybe im just tired right now. its 3 am and i know i promised to get some sleep. but i really want to let you know this.
i dont want to sound fucking sappy or pathetic. but in all the ways that im different, from my cincy/fuck up riot days or whatever, i do believe that im better off. sometimes i miss it like crazy and i get homesick. but not even driving through the city, going through dumpsters and the smell of paint fumes couldnt bring me home as well as you do. it feels so alright, and i dont want anything else in the world for the rest of my life. even though i still make messes of everything, and im not very level headed, i'm loving someone more then i ever thought i could. and its such a strong and fucking intense feeling, that sometimes when you get me all choked up, its just because its unconditional love that i have for you. it has nothing to do with drinking too much, or being intoxicated. i think its beyond that. you'd better think about it, puppy
love hillary