Feb 23, 2006 22:37
Okay, so get this.
I tell this guy that I've known for along time how I feel about him.
Really & truthfully, my exact feelings for him.
Every last one.
At first, he's surprised, but seems to be cool with it.
A couple days past, we chit chat and so on.
Then, today.
It ends.
He blocked me.
Won't answer my calls.
Nothing.
Thanks?
Now,
I feel like a major dumbass.
I just spilled my freakin' heart to this guy and this is what I get.
Yeah, I'm cool much.
No seriously.
I'm so stupid.
I actually told alot of people that he was the only one I ever felt close to.
I actually thought he was the one.
I still think it, actually.
See!
I'm fucking stupid.
I hate myself alot.
And if I could,
I'd dropkick myself in the fucking face.
It's what I deserve.
I'm just, I'm done.
Finished.
And now, I'm crying & upset.
Why?
Because I'm a fucking lameass.
And I suck at life.
Why do I try?
No, seriously, why?