im the kinda person that even when i do feel bad ..i try to make others think im happy. BLAH
"if i know myself better than anyone else,
then why do i do so many things that end up
hurting me?"
well so far today is okie.
found out some people have been talking behind
my back; spreading rumors about me in there
little 'cliches.'
which that doesnt bother me all that much.
but its just the fact that people that
hardly know me are sayn
"she'd fuck any guy with a dick"
ugh. come on u losers. just cause i joke
around about that stuff around my real
friends. doesnt mean im serious.
and i kno who was saying that stuff.
and i must add thats so
pathetic that u go around
talking to other ppl about me
that hardly know me themselves
and actually litsen to
what they say....
and u know what.. the only
thng u kno about me is my name.
so yeah. nice way to steal a girls heart<3
yeah. and a lot of weeks ago i found out
that vino and billy told james that
i didnt dump vino and just started going
out with nick.
billy..i thought we were cool..
and vino.. thats kinda messed up cause the
day before he told me that we hung out
and i thought everything was cool.
when i found out about that i wasnt gonna
let it bother me. and honestly, it still
doesnt bother me all that much.
the only thing that does bother me is that
the ppl who i thnk im cool with are
actually going behind my back and doing shit.
i mean...
i try to be a good friend to my
friends.
i try not to talk behind there
back.
i try to not make them feel bad.
i try to always be there for them.
i try to treat them how i would like to
be treated.
but i guess that never works.
not even with heather. its like
she only hangs out with me to
see billy and when we hang out
all she does is talk to billy.
i dnt care a few times here and there
but not every time.
if it wasnt for me (or vino) her
and billy would never have gone out.
ugh. and its like. she knows i like a guy
and she goes all over him.
wth...
oh yeah, and u dnt rat out ppl.
thats messed up. even if ur
not that close with them. at least
know I AM.
-_-
blah.
i dnt want to talk to her about this cuz
i dnt want her to feel bad. and if she
did read this.. then at least u know now.
gah. whatever. i feel better now that
i got all of that out.
lol. omg i jus read over that and
i made myself look like a HUGE
dork. and well. yeah i am a dork. but
i still do have my super coolness
friends. :)
i mean. all that shit doesnt bother
me that much. im the kind of person
that doesnt let that kinda shit get
to me. its kinda like 'dirt off the
shoulder' but i also learned that its
not healthy to keep shit inside.
so yeah.. hope that makes sense.
..and if it doesnt then...dont
say anything.. lol <.<
anyhow. tonight im going out to
get my passport did and done so
i can go to austraila this summer.
w00t.
well im out...
later everyone :)
-Kelso<3
then why do i do so many things that end up
hurting me?"
well so far today is okie.
found out some people have been talking behind
my back; spreading rumors about me in there
little 'cliches.'
which that doesnt bother me all that much.
but its just the fact that people that
hardly know me are sayn
"she'd fuck any guy with a dick"
ugh. come on u losers. just cause i joke
around about that stuff around my real
friends. doesnt mean im serious.
and i kno who was saying that stuff.
and i must add thats so
pathetic that u go around
talking to other ppl about me
that hardly know me themselves
and actually litsen to
what they say....
and u know what.. the only
thng u kno about me is my name.
so yeah. nice way to steal a girls heart<3
yeah. and a lot of weeks ago i found out
that vino and billy told james that
i didnt dump vino and just started going
out with nick.
billy..i thought we were cool..
and vino.. thats kinda messed up cause the
day before he told me that we hung out
and i thought everything was cool.
when i found out about that i wasnt gonna
let it bother me. and honestly, it still
doesnt bother me all that much.
the only thing that does bother me is that
the ppl who i thnk im cool with are
actually going behind my back and doing shit.
i mean...
i try to be a good friend to my
friends.
i try not to talk behind there
back.
i try to not make them feel bad.
i try to always be there for them.
i try to treat them how i would like to
be treated.
but i guess that never works.
not even with heather. its like
she only hangs out with me to
see billy and when we hang out
all she does is talk to billy.
i dnt care a few times here and there
but not every time.
if it wasnt for me (or vino) her
and billy would never have gone out.
ugh. and its like. she knows i like a guy
and she goes all over him.
wth...
oh yeah, and u dnt rat out ppl.
thats messed up. even if ur
not that close with them. at least
know I AM.
-_-
blah.
i dnt want to talk to her about this cuz
i dnt want her to feel bad. and if she
did read this.. then at least u know now.
gah. whatever. i feel better now that
i got all of that out.
lol. omg i jus read over that and
i made myself look like a HUGE
dork. and well. yeah i am a dork. but
i still do have my super coolness
friends. :)
i mean. all that shit doesnt bother
me that much. im the kind of person
that doesnt let that kinda shit get
to me. its kinda like 'dirt off the
shoulder' but i also learned that its
not healthy to keep shit inside.
so yeah.. hope that makes sense.
..and if it doesnt then...dont
say anything.. lol <.<
anyhow. tonight im going out to
get my passport did and done so
i can go to austraila this summer.
w00t.
well im out...
later everyone :)
-Kelso<3