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today i went to lawrence with mallory for a couple of hours. i bought a dress & a sweater from a.t.c. & a cd.
yeah. so that was fun. but as soon as i walked into my house i felt like death. i just feel really alone, even though i have more friends now than i've ever had. yes, having two or three friends at one time is my high score.
i just want someone to hug me & tell me they like me. i want to go on a date. a real date. going to a guy's house & making out isn't fun after a while. i'd make a good date, too. because i don't like being paid for, it doesn't take much to entertain me, & i'm easy to get along with.
& i really thought for a while that i'd try to become content with myself before i find someone. but i don't think i'll ever be content alone. i really do try to be. it just... doesn't work.
i've discovered that high school guys really just want to be laid. i don't care what they say. i know there has to be some that aren't like that though. i mean, even if they do like you, they still expect to get it. i really hate it when guys think being manly or whatever is not having any emotion. yes, oh well.
i kind of want school to start again. but i kind of don't. i don't this year's freshman to be there though. i hate to say it, but school generally entertains me a hell of a lot more than sitting at home.
but whatever. have a nice saturday evening.
yeah. so that was fun. but as soon as i walked into my house i felt like death. i just feel really alone, even though i have more friends now than i've ever had. yes, having two or three friends at one time is my high score.
i just want someone to hug me & tell me they like me. i want to go on a date. a real date. going to a guy's house & making out isn't fun after a while. i'd make a good date, too. because i don't like being paid for, it doesn't take much to entertain me, & i'm easy to get along with.
& i really thought for a while that i'd try to become content with myself before i find someone. but i don't think i'll ever be content alone. i really do try to be. it just... doesn't work.
i've discovered that high school guys really just want to be laid. i don't care what they say. i know there has to be some that aren't like that though. i mean, even if they do like you, they still expect to get it. i really hate it when guys think being manly or whatever is not having any emotion. yes, oh well.
i kind of want school to start again. but i kind of don't. i don't this year's freshman to be there though. i hate to say it, but school generally entertains me a hell of a lot more than sitting at home.
but whatever. have a nice saturday evening.