Jul 17, 2007 20:18
Last night...for the first time in a really really long time, i was completely content and relaxed. Me and Jon were just laying in bed, our legs entwined. Me reading my Cosmo, him watching some movie on tv. I felt completely comfortable around him. In booty shorts, and a tank top and him in boxers, we felt so at ease. Well at least, I did. No one has ever made me feel so beautiful without even telling me. Just the way he looks at me and kisses me, and holds me, makes me feel secure and safe. I don't think I've ever felt that way with a boyfriend before.Sure, I've had boyfriends who made me feel pretty, when I had makeup on, my hair done, and dressed up. But, I wasn't wearing any makeup, I was in underwear and a tank top, and my hair a mess with curls and he still made me feel so pretty. I love the little things he says when I least expect it. The random text messages saying "your gorgeous" or the random "I love you, beautiful" ones. The priceless little comments he says that mean the absolute world to me. I wish I could say all these things to him, but whenever I try, I think I'm being too mushy. In this movie " A lot Like Love " there's a quote that says "If you aren't willing to sound stupid, you don't deserve to be in love." I sound stupid all the time whenever I tell Jon, how much I love him. I know he takes those things to heart. I know I'm the best girlfriend he's ever had, because I actually DO mean the things I say to him. I'm SO completely and utterly in love with him. It's to the point now that whenever I leave him, I feel like crying because I can't be without him. I miss him so much when I'm not with him. Hearing him laugh, is so amazing. Seeing him smile, makes my heart melt. The random hand squeezes he does to tell me he loves me..Finding my hand immediately when we're out somewhere to show people I'm with him. The kisses. The hugs. Everything. I LOVE IT. I've never felt this way. I love him so fucking much. No one gets it.