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i'm seriously so happy right now, but a part of me just feels kind of lost. a lot of my friends are going off to college which is scary because that will be me in a year and i have no clue what i want to do with my life. last night i had a dream about anthony, one of the specail ed students i used to T.A. for and it really made me miss him. i wish everrrrrryone could know him! he is like my favorite kid in the world and i used to see him everyday and he'd always make me smile. and sometimes i feel like i could use one of those smiles. but usually i don't. usually i'm pretty happy. i think i just need a new job, some new classes, and a little help applying for colleges and i should be just about setttt. and i also really need to spend some time with clint. and kaitlin. and jake. and the list goes on. i really need to be a better friend. but aside from any of that, i was kissed in the rain tonight and that makes me smile :) and the funny thing is i didn't even know it was raining until i walked outside to say goodbyeee