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Lately I have been getting stupid fucked up.
Getting as high and drunk as possible to escape myself.
I can't complete a single thought sober or wasted.
When I'm sober things are too fast, fucked up I really could give a damn about the thoughts at all.
So which is better?
Scatter brain or not giving a fuck?
Either way, things will get better.
I gotta take things day by day.
I never understood how people could be fake to people they hated out of 'consideration'
Roudy and I were talking last night about it, how I'm apparently just SO rude to people to their face.
I honestly don't mean it, half the time I'm being sarcastic - definitely mixed with a little passive aggressiveness I guess. But it's nothing malicious. I swear.
But I've told off all my friends, and I just can't seem to make myself give a fuck about getting to know new people. Like most of the time I honestly don't give a fuck so why should I try to pay attention to someone that bores me. UGH - idk I'm rambling. I do need new friends though.
I can't wait to be on the fucking road, gahhhh! !!
P.S. MY FRIENDS FCKN SUCK! !! Yeah, you guys that say I'm your friend but practically avoid me. Fuck the fuck off.
Getting as high and drunk as possible to escape myself.
I can't complete a single thought sober or wasted.
When I'm sober things are too fast, fucked up I really could give a damn about the thoughts at all.
So which is better?
Scatter brain or not giving a fuck?
Either way, things will get better.
I gotta take things day by day.
I never understood how people could be fake to people they hated out of 'consideration'
Roudy and I were talking last night about it, how I'm apparently just SO rude to people to their face.
I honestly don't mean it, half the time I'm being sarcastic - definitely mixed with a little passive aggressiveness I guess. But it's nothing malicious. I swear.
But I've told off all my friends, and I just can't seem to make myself give a fuck about getting to know new people. Like most of the time I honestly don't give a fuck so why should I try to pay attention to someone that bores me. UGH - idk I'm rambling. I do need new friends though.
I can't wait to be on the fucking road, gahhhh! !!
P.S. MY FRIENDS FCKN SUCK! !! Yeah, you guys that say I'm your friend but practically avoid me. Fuck the fuck off.