trading my sins
i was at the hospital till 5 in the morning. lots of blood taking and shots. and results are indeed positive. something is very wrong. but i'm not bleeding internally so everything seems to be going according to plan(exactly what the doctor said) i had to get a shot in my butt. the lady said, this is going to hurt. i laughed. nothing at this point could hurt any worse than i'm already hurting inside. im emo. it rules. kandace and eL stayed as long as they could, till it just wasn't nessecary. i love them a lot. i really do. they were by my crying side all night.
it hurt worse to see my mom. she had a lot of questions, but she didnt ask any of them. she knows i need to deal with this on my own. i fell asleep in the hospital bed and woke up to her crying. my health problems are the reason they're always broke. most likely they're going to have to sale their beach property and i feel like shit.
i woke up this morning in the worst pain ever. i couldnt eat anything, i couldnt lay down, i couldnt stand up, i couldn't do anything. i've been drinking a lot of water. that has actually made things feel a little better. i'm lonely and scared. and i just dont see how this is going to work out...
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raigh'-*
it hurt worse to see my mom. she had a lot of questions, but she didnt ask any of them. she knows i need to deal with this on my own. i fell asleep in the hospital bed and woke up to her crying. my health problems are the reason they're always broke. most likely they're going to have to sale their beach property and i feel like shit.
i woke up this morning in the worst pain ever. i couldnt eat anything, i couldnt lay down, i couldnt stand up, i couldn't do anything. i've been drinking a lot of water. that has actually made things feel a little better. i'm lonely and scared. and i just dont see how this is going to work out...
new livejournal= raighdiant. add it up please.
raigh'-*